[Fic] Instant Gratification [1/1]
When they announced the lawsuit, Changmin’s first thought had been: what will happen to Yunho-hyung?
He had not been worried about Jaejoong. Jaejoong and his fickle mind and touchy hands and loose lips. He was sure Jaejoong would move on.
He was equally sure Yunho would not.
So when he wakes up to screaming at night, Changmin closes his eyes and prays.
please let us get through this, please let them work this out, please
But when Jaejoong fumbles into the bedroom, eyes red and wild and broken, Changmin falls easily back to sleep.
No, Jaejoong will never move on.
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Yoochun wanted to be the one to love Jaejoong.
It wasn’t fair that he was the closest, knew the most, loved the deepest and yet it was always Yunho, Yunho, Yunho.
It was a wicked thought but he thought the split might make Jaejoong his. At first, that was right and Yoochun loved him like a treasure.
But that wasn’t what Jaejoong wanted. Jaejoong didn’t just want love. He wanted flames, he wanted flare, he wanted fire meets water combustions and screaming in the rain.
He wasn’t what Jaejoong wanted.
In the end, it was always about Yunho, Yunho, Yunho.
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Junsu understood Jaejoong's sudden need to be close to him.
While it had always been Yoochun before, Junsu realized that Yoochun couldn't give Jaejoong what he desperately needed. Jaejoong needed Yunho and Yoochun was not.
Yoochun was a different charisma, soft and refreshing. Junsu and Yunho had similarities that ran deep. (They’ve known each other the longest too.)
Cute and dorky but fierce and powerful. While Yoochun would only gently and carefully love, Junsu could be rough and demanding. He could cuddle and cherish. He could also possess and smolder.
Junsu was as close as Jaejoong can get right now.
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It hurt more than he thought. Yunho always knew Jaejoong and Yoochun shared something special but Junsu too?
While he was jealous of the soulmates, Junsu was the threat. They were too alike. They could switch and people would love Junsu for his allure and Yunho for his innocence.
And he knows they share a similar gaze. (After all, they worked on it together.)
He wonders whether Junsu watches Jaejoong a similar way he does. He wonders whether Junsu demands and caresses Jaejoong a similar way he does.
People say Yunho and Changmin are alike. But they don’t know Junsu.
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Jaejoong felt guilty every night he leaves Junsu’s apartment.
Junsu made him feel Yunho-loved. Those eyes that claimed everything, those hands that marked, those lips that commanded him to get on your back and spread yourself out-nu-uh, don’t touch, beg.
Jaejoong knows that Junsu wants to be Yoochun-loved. Jaejoong knows he’s probably a bigger cockblock than Changmin ever was. (The maknae never interfered when Jaejoong needed Yunho.) He knows Junsu needed Yoochun.
Even so, it doesn’t stop him from seeking Junsu and Junsu never turns him away.
But, tonight, Junsu wasn’t enough. He wanted Yunho.
I love you.
(Yunho)
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A/N: Sorry, I will to get to the requests. This was stress-induced (as I said before, I write when I'm stressed but uh, my brain doesn't always do what I want.). I'm supposed to help college freshmen get situated and uh, they're a little too excited for me. I don't remember being that excited to get into college (or maybe I was but looking back I felt like I was a lot more mature...<--haha, oh you funny Liz)
I wrote this a while ago (my ponderings toward Jaesu <--I can write an essay about how I feel towards this pairing pre-lawsuit and post-lawsuit) and I originally wasn't going to post this because...uh...I felt bad for not getting to the requests first. But right now, my brain will honestly not go in the direction I want it to.
I'm sorry but I was hoping that getting rid of excess plot bunnies would make me more focused. (Scumbag Brain: Haha, fat chance.)