break down

[westwithenight]

I am loosing my mind. I can't stop crying right now it just keeps coming up like vomit. I want vomit. I want to get everything out of me. I want to be beyond where I am now. I can't do this. I know that it is rediculouse to be having a nervous break down over a show but there are 45 people depending on me to make them look good and I don't know how

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You're not alone

[heliocide]

You, my darling, are not alone. I love you, and I want you to remember that no matter what happens in this show, you have to remember that your life, health and wellbeing are not coins to be spent out of pocket just to bring the show in under budget. You are not letting anyone down, not anyone with eyes and a brain, not anyone who can see that you've been doing the work of 10 people by yourself, and that circumstances have not been kind or helpful, and that you've been working yourself to the point of breakdown to make it happen. No one could ask more of you, and in fact no one has the right to ask even this much. Take a deep breath, and another... Repeat as necessary :) You're going to be ok.