i am so confused about life ( Read more... )

what the fuck is wrong with me. seriously. this can't just be hormones or whatever...it can't be. how come when the stupidest little things stress me out i want to cry and just kill my self because life isnt worth living like this? why? why do i do that ( Read more... )

well i just wrote a really great paper on hamlet.i think it rocks and i made it go from 2 pages to 4 pages. i cant believe i did that ( Read more... )

i love how everyone tries to tell you what to do. all i wanna do is fucking go home and i have to deal with all this shit. why do i have to be here for my mom? so shes getting a divorce..i dont give a rats ass about him anyway. im sick of listenting to her bitch about him. she has christy and everyone else to talk to about her problems..why the ( Read more... )

after talking with some very trustworthy people...i think i have overcome the turmoil in my brain. well not entirely...there still someone i need to talk to about all this. butyea. ive made up my mind about what i am going to do. I know she's goin to be hurt,but this time, its my turn to be selfish. I need to do this for me. cause i if i dont...i ( Read more... )

i had a bad night last night. everything was good till i got off work. then i talked to chan about the winterguard competition and the sadness, the lonliness, the emptiness that i have been feeling just over took me. my girls, MY team...is going on without me and having fun without me and i know i should have been there. nani made me start crying ( Read more... )

oops i did it again. snowed that is ( Read more... )

last night i went to my friend jessicas house and we played uno with her boyfriend. it was really funny. i miss that game. it reminds me of the good ol days.

skip you!

thats my new cuss word. i got it from uno. so instead of saying fuck you, i can say that. nice isnt it?

well my soap is on. later days.

one of my best friends called me last night crying hysterically. i dont think i was ever more scared in my life of what she was going to say to me. im glad to find out that she is at home and safe now ( Read more... )

i put in my two weeks at coldwell banker. sayonara suckers ( Read more... )