and you have been on my mind for some odd reason. we should have broken up today, 3 years ago. i should have been strong enough to actually do it, but we stayed together for 4 more months. you are the reason why i can't be close with anyone. still. but now that i know it has been almost 3 years, i'm letting you go. i'm not going to think that i see ( Read more... )

i have decided that this will be my new myspace. it was kind of hard to press cancel account on that damn site and i havent had it for 3 days and i am having withdrawls. thats when you know youre addicted. you dont even feel like using your laptop because theres no myspace to keep lurking. its for the better. hopefully i can do more important ( Read more... )

time for an update. and what a better time than now? sometimes i lay in bed with my space heater on, watching some vh1, pondering what decisions to make. such a lovely thursday evening. the question for the evening. why do boys from my past insist on resurfacing? seriously. almost every single one maneuver their way back into my life. it is ( Read more... )

so i just realized something as i was driving back to san francisco from san mateo today.
listening to the doves.
driving 80 mph on 280.
i am a solid being filled with love.
it is within me.
and i exude it.
always giving it out.
all is full of love.
i had never felt that statement to be more truer than at that moment.

you know that feeling you get when you wake up and you know youre going to be late for something? try having that throughout the entire day. its such a shame ( Read more... )

a few important things have happened ( Read more... )

i had been sleeping on one side of my bed. as if i were waiting for something. waiting for you. but now i lay in the middle. and i dont know how this makes me feel. indifferent? no. lonely? yes. satisfied? never.

when is it my turn to be saved...

my friend called me today and exclaimed that he told a homeless person that he thought his jacket was, and i quote, "cute." oh the irony of that statement. the homeless guy looked up from the garbage can that he had been digging through, grunted, and continued to peer through its remains. i loved that story ( Read more... )

here we go again. a shallow attempt to keep track of my rather boring life. i keep telling myself it will be different this time. i must make it different. after all, i am a different person than i was a year ago, a month ago, a day ago, an hour ago. always changing ( Read more... )