Resonating...
I've been reading my friends' journals lately, and I've realized that a lot of them are also having love troubles. I suppose it's that time of year. Everything is either romantic or falling apart.
Just a couple days after I got started with school, I realized that this year was going to be just like the last year: sad, lonely, depressing and frustrating because I'm so bad at letting people know how I feel that I just end up giving myself more grief than I began with. But I swear, it's not been all bad this semester so far! There have just been a couple of things that have managed to get me down.
Of course, there's Kaylee. While I can tell that she still has some feelings for me, I can't seem to gauge it, and I don't know just how she feels for me right now. Last I knew, she was deciding between loving me, loving a swinger, and loving a drug dealer. I don't know just what she values most, but I hope she makes the best choice for herself...
I've talked a little with her, but not a lot. She lost her job, so I feel like I ought not bother her with my petty little problems of the heart. I just wish I could know how she feels right now, because if she wanted me, I would be on the bus in two seconds and make the 110-minute trip up there to see her, no matter when or what the reason.
But enough about that! I just hope things get resolved soon, because I'm growing a little weary and sad.
I've finally got a job in the cafeteria of my dorm! I have been working hard, and, contrary to me other jobs, I haven't been booted out the door yet! Additionally, I was trained! I was able to ask questions and have them answered; I wasn't expected to know just what to do! It's a process! Is this how normal peoples' jobs go? Because if so, STOP COMPLAINING. Holy Jesus! This is the best! I am so glad that I have a job and that it works like normal! I feel relief!
I still have a lot of homework, since it's the beginning of the semester and I work too hard for my own good. I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I could ALMOST swing a Graphic Design major, but I don't have room for the remaining three classes. I may need to do Psychology now. I'm so very conflicted!
I would like to have everything in order. But, you know...In order to do that, I'd need to have someone to talk to. The kind of person who knows you, and there are only two people who I can really talk to like that. Sadly, though, they are never available--either because they are simply busy or because they don't notice or care that I need someone to talk to. Maybe they don't even realize that they're the only two in the world I'd trust with my life.
I don't blame, 'em, though. I'm pretty annoying when I need to talk. No one likes being around a whiner! So I'm trying to stay positive! Everything is not all bad!
Just a couple days after I got started with school, I realized that this year was going to be just like the last year: sad, lonely, depressing and frustrating because I'm so bad at letting people know how I feel that I just end up giving myself more grief than I began with. But I swear, it's not been all bad this semester so far! There have just been a couple of things that have managed to get me down.
Of course, there's Kaylee. While I can tell that she still has some feelings for me, I can't seem to gauge it, and I don't know just how she feels for me right now. Last I knew, she was deciding between loving me, loving a swinger, and loving a drug dealer. I don't know just what she values most, but I hope she makes the best choice for herself...
I've talked a little with her, but not a lot. She lost her job, so I feel like I ought not bother her with my petty little problems of the heart. I just wish I could know how she feels right now, because if she wanted me, I would be on the bus in two seconds and make the 110-minute trip up there to see her, no matter when or what the reason.
But enough about that! I just hope things get resolved soon, because I'm growing a little weary and sad.
I've finally got a job in the cafeteria of my dorm! I have been working hard, and, contrary to me other jobs, I haven't been booted out the door yet! Additionally, I was trained! I was able to ask questions and have them answered; I wasn't expected to know just what to do! It's a process! Is this how normal peoples' jobs go? Because if so, STOP COMPLAINING. Holy Jesus! This is the best! I am so glad that I have a job and that it works like normal! I feel relief!
I still have a lot of homework, since it's the beginning of the semester and I work too hard for my own good. I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I could ALMOST swing a Graphic Design major, but I don't have room for the remaining three classes. I may need to do Psychology now. I'm so very conflicted!
I would like to have everything in order. But, you know...In order to do that, I'd need to have someone to talk to. The kind of person who knows you, and there are only two people who I can really talk to like that. Sadly, though, they are never available--either because they are simply busy or because they don't notice or care that I need someone to talk to. Maybe they don't even realize that they're the only two in the world I'd trust with my life.
I don't blame, 'em, though. I'm pretty annoying when I need to talk. No one likes being around a whiner! So I'm trying to stay positive! Everything is not all bad!