ive gone kinky bonkers

im in rehab. i was locked up two months ago, been depressed and drugged up until rehab. im getting discharged from the marines and i have to start to try to live a normal life. wow.

i keep getting a kick about looking back on my life via old livejournal post. damn, i've lost so much theses past two years but it's nothing extremely essential ( Read more... )

every time i let go i only fall upon tight bonds with fragile lifelines.

well, time has only brought me to a higher unwritten billet. my knowledge is beyond my capabilities and my rage has found a vent. i feel so much better then yesterday and that's an everday feeling. my plagues are just overrun by the thoughts of combat. every day i dream about killing but thats just a mere daydream. its more vivid in my eyes since i ( Read more... )

i feel this new life is awkward in the sense that nothing exciting can ever out do the past and i have every right to almost kill myself in my own self right in search for a medium. love is complicated but a complication that i can somewhat comprehend. pieces that were shredded now seem to come to form. it used to bother me so much about how my ( Read more... )

a month ago i got battalion special orders that i really cant get that into. im going to afghanistan in a near future. weeeks. im heavily trained with crew served weapons. its a shame i dont have too much time to really enjoy my time in the california desert except for the weekends. well im goin back to my life.

this week was hell. not only was i sick with nasal conjestion and a nasty cough, but i had to wake up every morning at 0400. it was worth it tho, since i got expert at the rifle range. progress in the usmc is always a good thing, and i just make me feel like im not wasting any time. i signed up to go to afghan sooner then my battery will, but i ( Read more... )

 its been forever, but i feel the whole teenage angst and rejection phase slip away as i go further on in life as a united states marine. oorah. just a whole bunch of new problems, but i can fight them off easily. i love life despite leaving so much behind, wish me luck.

it starts like it did two years ago ( Read more... )