i'm so sick.
and so tired.
that i can't sleep anymore.
ugh.

fuck this.

starting a post is always the hardest thing ( Read more... )

so this morning i was at the gas station getting a bottle of water and some teddy grahams ( Read more... )

so i'm taking my life moment by moment and trying to live in each moment, and enjoy that moment ( Read more... )

ronnie day.
written at a rest stop.

is amazing.
and is my life right now.

my busy. tragic. stressful. fastpaced. AMAZING FUCKING LIFE =)))
that i love, really.

There's a thing we call heartbreak ( Read more... )

in all honesty?

i can say "it doesn't matter, blah blah" as many times as i want.
but that won't take away the pain.

time will take away the pain.
so will starting rehearsals.
but what will never go away.
ever.

is this fact:

people do not get what they deserve.

"it's all for the best--because it is" thanks imogeni have worked my ass off for ( Read more... )

i haven't felt so alone in well...

ever, probably. *sigh*

relient k's "be my escape" pretty much just sums up my entire existence right now ( Read more... )

so wowzers.

ugh!

so lately i've been really down on myself.
REALLY down on myself.

probably because everyone has been so down on me, too.

but i hit this low.
this two-hundred-twenty pound lowwhen i couldn't even get a pair of pants over my thighs, let alone button them ( Read more... )

and in the end of 2006 i realize ( Read more... )