Dangerous Levels

[whatahotmama03]

Whew!! So glad that we will be sleeping soon. My blood pressure was 91/46 and heart rate was 59. I wish I can make myself all better. Feel like half of me wanna just eat and be normal but I alway end up hating myself for it in a day or 2. Sigh. This is soo hard and I really hate this

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*hugs*

[chicanery102]

jess, im really worried about you. especially with those vitals. you need to get into treatment now. im not just saying that. you know me a lot better than that by now, and you know i understand, but you really are going to die if you dont get stabelized. and i do NOT want that to happen. i have known a lot of people, some who have had some very close calls, but no one who has died from this hell yet. and i do not want you to be the first. period. i know what a struggle it is. a constant battle between trying to take care of yourself and not hate yourself so muc it feels like you can hardly breath at the same time. but youre going to have to if you want to stay alive, and i know you do.
please, please, please take care of your self jess. please. and of course i am willing to do anything i can to help you too, just let me know!!

xoxo

Re: *hugs*

[whatahotmama03]

Hey girl,
I went to the doctor today for my ear infection. I got me some medicine. My vitals are better today. I am going to talk to my therapist about it on Wednesday. I guess it is hard to do treatment without insurance and stuff like that. I am trying to do better. It is hard and I most certainly don't want to die. I can't swim for 4 days. Doctor order. :-(