who gives a shit if it's depressive and rainy outside? if things haven't really improved. if the air is in stasis around everything, if nothing really matters ( Read more... )

 i want to travel around, i want to meet new people, i want to read new things. i want to sing and make music and art and write and experiment with psychedelic experiences and be surrounded by nature. 

disgusted at me and disappointed when i get sick from drinking. but when i don't want to go out and party with you all the time, I'm lame and no fun for you ( Read more... )

the newer sigur ros album, i just realized upon reading all the lyric translations, matches perfectly with the progression of my last 8ish months to a year.. fitting to seasons changing, lives, friendships. so beautiful of course.
jonsi, you are the song on my lips for ages to come..

"Inní Mér Syngur Vitleysingur" (Inside me a lunatic sings)
On a ( Read more... )

johnny cash, you are a man that salt cures all wounds.

I definitely should have studied abroad this semester.

this is the first semester where i'm actually dreading starting school tomorrow. i'm up for the distractions it will provide but i do not feel capable of performing in any kind of acceptable way. i am sick to my stomach. disoriented. alone. its all in my head, but my head is winning

mitch and i are no more.
i didn't think i would care this much as a lot of it was already gone, but it doesn't matter. it's like i remember all the reasons why i wanted it to work, and that sucks.
i need to get out of here. i can't even listen to music.

hmmmm... anxious, excited, apprehensive, worried, content, confusing ( Read more... )

i'm pretty happy. for awhile now, some sort of winter blooming has somehow exploded.
it is not circumstantial. it is not even romantic. sometimes you just relax and the glow reveals itself.