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[whattheytellyou]

[Friends Filter**]I need to sort a few things out, so forgive me if I ramble. Maybe a solution will present itself. Or maybe someone has some insight that would be useful

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[you_run_i_chase]

I drink way more than I used too. [Well, for a while, she drank a lot more in the second year of Jarod's chase than the first. And she screwed around with Aleera but she wasn't going to mention that. It was a dumb idea.]

[Private]

You got a deal, Doc?

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[whattheytellyou]

Seems to be a pretty common affliction around here.

[Private]

Money.

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[you_run_i_chase]

What's the money for?

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[whattheytellyou]

If I can rehabilitate an inmate, I'll have enough money to fund a lifetime of research.

...I'm starting to wonder if it's worth it. If I go home, I can keep on the way I have been. I'm the foremost expert in my field; I would never have wanted for funding.

It was just a convenience, really.

Friends: Rayne would be incredibly confused if she knew she's classified as such, however,,,

[rayney_day]

You're troubled because your inmate's... Not fucking you over?

Friends: Sarah doesn't have *real* friends. XD Just a shitton of acquaintances.

[whattheytellyou]

I'm troubled because I think I might be fucking myself over.

Friends: The curse of professionalism...

[rayney_day]

How? Just go help out someone else if you think inactivity's your problem.

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[whattheytellyou]

Inactivity isn't my problem. It's just exacerbating my problem.

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[most_feared]

This might not sound helpful, but trust me. Sooner or later the waiting stops mattering when you fully get the idea something will happen and not something might happen.

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[whattheytellyou]

It helps.

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[most_feared]

For the record, though, I don't think this place is all that psychologically helpful even if you completely removed the floods and the violence. The inmates, no matter what their sins, were kidnapped. They weren't saved. Being taken away against one's will and being confined somewhere is kidnapping.

Then we're told to rehabilitate someone. Oh, we're given a healthy offer, but when we get here we're presented with a person stripped of the world they developed in and are expected to psychologically manipulate them into respecting us, a complete stranger, enough to trust us in order to get them, a hostage victim trying to survive, to listen to what we say and take it seriously.

It's okay to be put off by it. I am most of the time.

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[whattheytellyou]

That was an entire aspect of this that I wasn't considering.

[She lets out an amused, frustrated bark of a laugh.]

Kay, you're making it worse.

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[whattheytellyou]

How long were you gone each time?

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[whattheytellyou]

So I hear. Your...blonde counterpart? Von Wehr? Showed me the trick with the cricket ball.

I wasn't planning on trying any time travel, myself.

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[notarrowette]

[So it takes Cissie a loooooong time to figure out what she wants to say to this. There is so much she COULD say.]

It's... that transition back to normalcy is the hardest part. Sometimes you just can't. But I don't think it's ever fully normal here, because we're always just waiting for the other shoe to drop, you know?

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[whattheytellyou]

That's part of the problem, yes.

It does make it difficult to drop your guard.