FIC - Second time around (2/2) - JANSIS
Title: Second Time Around (2/2) - JANSIS
Author: Wheelie47
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Van and Jake
Word count: 3,939
Warning: Features Van and Jake - if RPF is not for you then please don’t read.
Disclaimer: Don’t own characters, am not associated in any way with ATWT, Van and Jake. No offence intended.
Summary: Jake visits Van in LA for the second time…
Inspired by a certain person’s new profile pic.
‘Jake?’ Van called out softly through the closed door of the spare bedroom. Getting no reply, he shifted the breakfast tray into one hand and knocked on the door. Still nothing. Well… he wasn’t surprised, flying always took its toll on Jake, Van remembered with a smile… no wonder he was sleeping in this morning, especially if he’d had a night like Van; tossing and turning knowing that Jake was only across the hall. But still they needed to get this day started if they were going to fit in everything Van and his friends had planned for the day… so he reached for the handle and opened the door.
Van felt familiar stirrings deep down as he opened the door to be greeted with Jake still fast asleep and curled on his side facing the door… stirrings for Jake that he had tried to deny after they had agreed to stay just friends. Stirrings that if he was truly honest with himself had started long before their drunken encounter.
The sheet lay pooled around Jake’s waist and Van found himself tracing his eyes over the taut stomach muscles and up over the smooth expanse of chest… Jake had always been well defined but it looked like he had been working out more and Van thought it suited him. He sighed sadly at the thought… he knew Jake was a handsome guy… there was never any doubt about that but he was also one of the kindest, most generous people he had ever met. Which was why it was so difficult to understand why he’d lost contact with him… he missed his best friend.
Jake stirred slightly in his sleep and Van couldn’t help but smile at the way he twitched his nose and took a deep breath; as if smelling the freshly brewed coffee.
‘Hey Sleepy head’ Van called out when he saw Jake crack open an eye lid.
‘Ugghh’ Jake groaned; his voice rough with sleep. ‘Is that coffee?’
Van placed the tray on the bed side table and handed Jake the mug; desperately trying to ignore the fact that the sheet had slipped further down Jake’s torso as he sat up and rested against the headboard. ‘Happy 4th of July!’ he said brightly.
‘Thanks’ Jake replied as he took the mug from Van, ‘you too!’
Jake eyed Van over the top of the coffee mug as he blew on it before taking a grateful sip. ‘You didn’t have to…’ he gestured towards the breakfast tray… although he had to admit the bacon, eggs and toast looked and smelt mouth watering.
Van shrugged ‘Well… you didn’t eat anything last night and I figured you would need something to keep your energy levels up for all the things we’ve got planned today’
‘Well thanks anyway’ Jake took another deeper sip of coffee this time and began to feel slightly more human.
As he saw Van watching him expectantly Jake felt the need to apologise again for not keeping in touch. ‘Look… Van… I’m so sorry for…’
Van waved off the apology again and gave him a small smile. ‘It’s ok Jake… you’ve already apologised.’ He paused slightly before continuing, hoping to try and find the right words, ‘I won’t pretend that it didn’t hurt. But what I don’t understand is why… I… I thought we’d agreed that we would put that night behind us… forget it had happened’ Van asked and he looked at Jake; searching his face for an explanation.
It suddenly hit Jake as he looked at Van’s open and honest face to see the confusion and dejection written plain across his features, that Van might actually think he was too embarrassed about what had happened that night or that he hadn’t wanted it as much as Van had in the heat of the moment. He had to put that right… couldn’t stand to see Van looking at him like that.
‘You’re right’ Jake breathed out slowly ‘I didn’t mean to hurt you and you deserve an explanation.’ Jake took a deep breath… this was it. It was time to admit to himself as well as to Van just exactly what he was feeling. To admit that seeing Van again had made him realise that he wished they hadn’t agreed that drunken night was a mistake… that it was actually what he wanted. He wanted Van back in his life… and not just as a friend.
‘I… I wish that we hadn’t…’ Jake began to explain softly but was interrupted by the blaring of a car horn outside the building; two short blasts followed by a longer one, signally the arrival of Steve.
‘Shit!’ Van exclaimed, pursing his lips in frustration and annoyance. ‘That guy is always early!’
‘I’ll go stall him… while you get ready’ Van offered as he started to turn towards the door.
Jake sighed in frustration as he watched Van close the door behind him; this conversation would have to wait til later…
…
God… this place was amazing Jake thought to himself as he stood a little apart from Van and his group of friends; admiring the views all around. They stood on the edge of the road overlooking a deep wooded valley with a vista of high rolling hills as far as the eye could see.
The view literally took his breath away and it made him feel humble; it reminded him that these hills had been here long before he was born and would be there long after he was gone. It also made him resolve to seize each and every day and make the most out of his opportunities… like telling Van today how he really felt.
At the thought of Van he turned slightly to see where he was… and as he saw him laughing and joking with his friends… friends that Jake didn’t know, he felt a sense of loneliness and he found himself missing the days when they were on the show and when it seemed like they were almost joined at the hip.
Just as Jake was about to turn back to look at the valley again he saw Van turn towards him; almost as if he knew Jake was thinking about him. Van smiled gently and started to make his way towards Jake.
'Hey’ Van called out softly as he got nearer.
’Hey’ Jake replied and smiled when Van reached the point where he was standing. ‘This place is amazing… I can’t believe we’re only 30 minutes outside of LA’ he shook his head in disbelief as he turned to face the breathtaking view again.
‘Yeah… I know. This is my fifth time up here and it never ceases to amazes me… I don’t ever want to get tired of this view’ he smiled, looking directly at Jake.
‘How did you know it was here?’ Jake asked as he turned to face Van again, finding himself wondering who Van had been up here with.
Van turned his head slightly and nodded in the direction of a dark haired guy who had his arm wrapped round a petite brunette woman, ‘I’ve got Jase to thank for that… we took a drive up here after he’d had a fight with his girlfriend. They’re ok now, in case you were wondering!’ Van smirked as he watched Jase lean down to kiss Vicky before turning to look back at Jake.
Just at that moment a hot breeze swirled over the ridge and swept lose strands of Van’s hair forward across his face and into his eyes. Jake was torn between reaching forward and brushing them out of Van’s eyes or tracing his fingers across the stubble on Van’s upper lip to wipe away the beads of sweat that he noticed had collected there. He clenched his fingers against the desire; telling himself that this wasn’t the place, here in front of Van’s friends. Jake had to look away when Van reached up with his right hand and swept his hair back out of the way.
‘You ok?’ he asked in concern as he bumped Jake’s shoulder gently with his own.
‘Yeah… just a little tired… maybe’ Jake smiled reassuringly as he risked a quick sideways look at Van.
‘Well… we’ll be stopping in a little while anyway. We’ll have something to eat before we get to the fireworks’ Van explained…
…
Van stood and watched as firework after firework lit up the night sky; craning his neck to follow their path before they exploded against the velvety darkness.
He smiled in wonder as he saw the same scene repeated again and again across the night sky; some closer… some further away. He found himself thinking about the people who were watching the fireworks just like him; wondering what kind of lives they led. Were they happy? Did they have people who loved them and did they love them back? He couldn’t help but think of Jake and be thankful that he was here. He knew things were weird between them but at least now that he was here they could talk about it… work it out.
He turned to Jake, about to ask him if he’d seen an especially spectacular firework and found to his surprise that he was no longer standing next to him.
‘Hey Vicky… you seen Jake?’ Van asked, turning to his friend where she stood leaning back into Jase’s embrace.
‘No… he was here a minute ago’ she replied, turning her head to see if she could see Van’s friend.
‘I’ll go look for him’ Van said, slightly worried that Jake hadn’t said where he was going; although the thought did cross his mind that he would feel pretty stupid if Jake had only gone to relieve himself.
‘Take a light with you’ Vicky suggested as she tilted her head back to watch the fireworks again.
‘Yes Mom!’ Van said sarcastically, before chuckling as he bent to pick one up and also paused to grab a blanket; suddenly aware that the night had bought a chill with it after the heat and humidity of the day…
…
Van found Jake a little way off from the group on the other side of a small rocky outcrop. He sat with his knees up to his chest and his back resting against a smooth part of the rock; drawing meaningless patterns in the sand with his fingers.
‘Hey’ Van said softly, not wanting to startle Jake. ‘I thought you might have fallen down a hole!’ he joked in relief at finding him.
Jake looked up at Van; his eyes sparkling in the soft lamp light. ‘And what were you going to do with a light and a blanket?!’ Jake retorted with a good natured smirk.
‘Make myself comfortable while I waited for you to be rescued…duh!’ Van couldn’t help but chuckle; glad to see Jake smiling again.
‘Jerk!’ Jake shot back.
‘Jerk?! Me?! I’m not the one who’s gonna freeze his ass off sitting on the cold ground! Here… help me put this down’ Van instructed as he unfolded the blanket for them both to sit on.
They sat in silence for a little while, content to just watch the fireworks over the other side of the ridge; each lost in their own thoughts.
‘Jake…’
‘Van…’ they both started at the same time and broke into nervous laughter.
‘You first’ Van insisted, with an encouraging nod.
‘Ok’ Jake swallowed nervously as he turned to look at Van. ‘Van… I’m sorry about earlier…’ he held up his hand to stop Van from interrupting him on hearing his apology. ‘What I was trying to tell you… what I wanted to say’. This was it… now or never… why was he finding it so difficult to say what he wanted to say?
Jake took a steadying breath and looked Van full in the face, ‘I wish… we hadn’t agreed that night was a mistake. I didn’t think it was… I wanted it to happen as much as I think you did’
Van’s mouth dropped open in surprise, ‘You did?!’
‘Yeah…’ Jake nodded slowly. ‘I… I think I’m falling in love with you’. There he’d said it… finally said the reason that it was so painful to talk to Van and pretend that what had happened meant nothing.
‘You are?’ Van replied, his eyes open wide in shock.
Van shook his head and a low chuckle escaped his lips. A chuckle that developed into a perplexing laugh; this was not the response that Jake was expecting. In truth he didn’t know how Van would react but this… this hurt.
‘We are so stupid!’ Van finally said, shaking his head in amusement, ‘we should have ‘stupid’ tattooed across our foreheads.’
‘Huh?’ Jake asked in confusion.
‘We have wasted so much time’ Van tried to explain. ‘Don’t… don’t you know that I feel the same. I only agreed that we should forget the whole thing cause I thought that’s what you wanted’. He felt his heart race at the possibility that he hadn’t let himself believe could happen… until now.
‘You do?!’ Jake asked, his smile widening.
‘Mmm…mmmh’ Van nodded in agreement. ‘Let’s not waste anymore time’ he said a little breathlessly as he reached out and traced the pad of his thumb tenderly across Jake’s lips.
Jake’s reply was lost as Van leaned forward to replace his thumb with his lips. The kiss started off slowly, almost tentatively but as Van felt Jake respond to the kiss, he couldn’t resist the temptation to reach up and tangle his fingers in the dark luxuriant hair at the base of Jake’s neck; pulling him in deeper.
‘Vaaan’ Jake groaned into the kiss and found himself wanting to touch… to feel more of Van. Not breaking the kiss, he traced his fingers down the material of Van’s black t-shirt, searching for the hem. He almost sighed with relief as his fingers finally touched the skin under the now offending material; marvelling at the feel of hard muscle under soft skin.
Van pulled back from the kiss as he felt Jake’s hot palms snake sensuously up his torso; his fingers threading through the dusting of his chest hair, pushing his t-shirt up over his chest.
It took all of Van’s willpower to still Jake’s hands with his own as his fingers brushed against his nipples; sending spine tingling sensations of arousal all over his body that made his cock twitch with anticipation. ‘Jake?’ Van asked simply; that one heartfelt word conveying the need to check that this was ok… that they weren’t going to make the same mistake again.
Jake smiled briefly and nodded almost imperceptivity; Van could tell by the hungry look of desire in Jake’s intense gaze that he was going to show him rather than tell him that this was ok… more than ok.
Jake made short work of pulling Van’s t-shirt up and over his head, flinging it to one side before lowering his head to flick his tongue across one nipple and teasing his fingertips across the other. ‘Fuck Jake!’ Van hissed out; hoping that his voice didn’t carry too far as he fisted his fingers into Jake’s hair.
Jake smirked against Van’s chest before sucking the nipple into his mouth as he heard Van’s moan above him.
It was his turn to moan as he felt Van’s hands roam over the expanse of his back, heading down to trace his fingertips over the strip of skin exposed above the waistband of his jeans. ‘God…Vaan’ he gasped; his hot breath ghosting across the sensitive head of Van’s nipple as he felt Van’s long fingers slip under the elastic waistband of his boxer briefs and in between his ass cheeks to tease across his puckered hole. He jolted back in surprise; he’d never had anybody else touch him there before and the intensity of the erotic feeling that surged straight to his cock made him harder than he’d ever been.
‘You like that?!’ Van asked with a smirk, finding himself incredibly turned on that his touch had that effect on Jake as he grabbed the hem of Jake’s grey t-shirt and pulled up and over Jake’s head. That was something they could experiment with later… much later he thought to himself.
Unable to resist touching the smooth expanse of pale skin stretched across taut chest and stomach muscles, he reached out with one hand and sensuously traced a path down Jake’s torso; using his other hand to curl around Jake’s neck to pull him in for a passionate kiss… lips sliding over lips… stubble rasping against stubble.
‘Need you… want you inside me’ Van whispered against kiss moist lips as he palmed Jake’s hard cock through the rough material of his jeans.
The feel of Van’s hand on him seemed to flick a switch deep within him that screamed at him now… need more…now and he rocked back on his heels to fumble at his belt and zip; watching with growing anticipation and desire as Van did the same.
‘So beautiful’ Jake choked out; his voice rough with emotion as he saw Van completely naked for the first time; his hard cock standing proud, his pale skin almost ethereal in the soft glow of the lamp light; the light dusting of hair on his chest and the wispy strands of hair that framed his face. Jake shivered and not just from the cool breeze that blew across his exposed skin but from the enormity of what they were doing.
Van understood completely because he felt the same overwhelming emotions that were mirrored in Jake’s eyes. ‘It’s ok… it’s ok’ he murmured as he moved on to his knees to embrace Jake; holding him tight and kissing the side of his neck in reassurance. ‘It’s still us… we’re ok’ he whispered in between kisses as he worked his way up Jake’s neck to finally reach his lips.
‘Need you Jake… I love you’ he breathed out as they parted and he gazed at Jake with such a deep look of want… need… love and trust that Jake thought his heart would burst with the intensity of it all.
‘Lie back’ Van murmured, placing both his palms flat against Jake’s chest and applied gentle pressure to get him to ease back against the blanket.
Van reached for his jeans and fumbled for his wallet; his fingers suddenly numb. He flipped it open and pulled out a condom and a small packet of lube; praying that it would be enough…it had been a long time since he had been with anybody.
He leaned down to kiss Jake sensually as he handed him the condom before straddling Jake’s hips and resting back onto his thighs; ripping open the packet of lube.
Jake watched in awe as Van quickly prepared himself; one hand coming to rest almost automatically on Van’s hip while he slowly jacked himself with the other.
‘Ready?’ Van panted as he took the open condom packet from Jake before rolling it down Jake’s length.
Rising up onto his knees he locked eyes with Jake as he slowly eased himself down onto his length. He groaned loudly and flung his head back; eyes squeezed shut.
‘Am I hurting you?!’ Jake whispered urgently; the concern clear in his voice. Van felt so tight around him that Jake thought it must hurt.
‘Just give me a minute… it’s been a while’ Van answered through gritted teeth as he adjusted to Jake’s girth. Although concerned for Van, Jake was secretly pleased that he was Van’s first in a long time.
‘Move… Jake…move’ Van’s eyes flicked open and he started to push down against Jake as he wrapped long fingers around his own achingly hard cock.
After a few awkward, almost tentative thrusts where Jake was still scared of hurting Van; they settled into a rhythm of Van’s downward thrusts meeting Jake’s upward roll of his hips. Jake had never felt anything like this…so tight and so hot… and he knew that he wouldn’t last long.
Suddenly the need to touch all of Van overwhelmed him and he pushed up into a sitting position; hoping that the change of angle wouldn’t hurt Van. He captured Van’s lips hungrily with his own; feeling the long strands of Van’s hair tickling the sides of his face.
He groaned into Van’s mouth as he felt Van wrap his legs round his hips; pulling him deeper into him.
‘Harder… Jake’ Van breathed out against Jake’s lips as the change of angle not only trapped his over sensitive cock between their stomachs but also meant that every upward thrust of Jake’s rubbed against his prostate time and time again.
Those breathless words and the feel of Van all around him was just too much for his overwhelmed senses and after one more deep thrust he came with a shuddering intensity, emptying himself into the condom deep within Van.
Van’s own gratifying release followed close behind; the feel of Jake’s cock throbbing deep within him and the delicious friction against his own cock pushed him over the edge and he blew out a shaky breath against Jake’s neck.
After long moments of just holding each other through their post climatic high; their chests heaving together, Jake started to pull himself free. ‘They’ll be coming to look for us soon’ Jake whispered as the unwelcome reality of where they were began to seep in.
‘Wait… not just yet’ Van pleaded; snuggling in a little closer, desperate to keep the outside world at bay for a little longer.
‘I love you’ Jake murmured as he wrapped his arms tighter around Van.
Van smiled against Jake’s neck and pressed a soft kiss to the overheated skin, ‘I love you too!’ his smile widening at those four words he thought he would never get a chance to say to Jake…
…
‘Well… here we are’ Jake said as they stood uncertainly in Van’s hallway outside the spare bedroom door.
They hadn’t said much to each other after they had rejoined the others and the car ride home had found them each lost in their own thoughts; although Jake had smiled tenderly over at Van when he felt Van’s fingers gently squeeze his thigh undercover of the darkness of the back seat when they had dropped everyone else off and it was just them and Steve.
‘It’s been an amazing day Van. Thanks for asking me’ Jake smiled.
‘Your welcome…I’m really… really glad you came! Van replied with a shrug and a lop sided grin… still able to feel the sensation of the fullness of Jake.
Jake started to turn towards the door; uncertain whether he should follow Van down the hall to his bedroom or stay in the spare room.
‘No…Jake… no’ Van said as he reached out and grasped his shoulder, stopping him from turning away. He ran his hand gently down Jake’s muscled arm to interlink their fingers ‘I don’t want us to make the same mistake the second time around… we’re not walking away from each other this time’. Van’s smile was irresistible and Jake found himself grinning back at him as he let himself be led by the hand towards Van’s bedroom.
The End
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Author: Wheelie47
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Van and Jake
Word count: 3,939
Warning: Features Van and Jake - if RPF is not for you then please don’t read.
Disclaimer: Don’t own characters, am not associated in any way with ATWT, Van and Jake. No offence intended.
Summary: Jake visits Van in LA for the second time…
Inspired by a certain person’s new profile pic.
‘Jake?’ Van called out softly through the closed door of the spare bedroom. Getting no reply, he shifted the breakfast tray into one hand and knocked on the door. Still nothing. Well… he wasn’t surprised, flying always took its toll on Jake, Van remembered with a smile… no wonder he was sleeping in this morning, especially if he’d had a night like Van; tossing and turning knowing that Jake was only across the hall. But still they needed to get this day started if they were going to fit in everything Van and his friends had planned for the day… so he reached for the handle and opened the door.
Van felt familiar stirrings deep down as he opened the door to be greeted with Jake still fast asleep and curled on his side facing the door… stirrings for Jake that he had tried to deny after they had agreed to stay just friends. Stirrings that if he was truly honest with himself had started long before their drunken encounter.
The sheet lay pooled around Jake’s waist and Van found himself tracing his eyes over the taut stomach muscles and up over the smooth expanse of chest… Jake had always been well defined but it looked like he had been working out more and Van thought it suited him. He sighed sadly at the thought… he knew Jake was a handsome guy… there was never any doubt about that but he was also one of the kindest, most generous people he had ever met. Which was why it was so difficult to understand why he’d lost contact with him… he missed his best friend.
Jake stirred slightly in his sleep and Van couldn’t help but smile at the way he twitched his nose and took a deep breath; as if smelling the freshly brewed coffee.
‘Hey Sleepy head’ Van called out when he saw Jake crack open an eye lid.
‘Ugghh’ Jake groaned; his voice rough with sleep. ‘Is that coffee?’
Van placed the tray on the bed side table and handed Jake the mug; desperately trying to ignore the fact that the sheet had slipped further down Jake’s torso as he sat up and rested against the headboard. ‘Happy 4th of July!’ he said brightly.
‘Thanks’ Jake replied as he took the mug from Van, ‘you too!’
Jake eyed Van over the top of the coffee mug as he blew on it before taking a grateful sip. ‘You didn’t have to…’ he gestured towards the breakfast tray… although he had to admit the bacon, eggs and toast looked and smelt mouth watering.
Van shrugged ‘Well… you didn’t eat anything last night and I figured you would need something to keep your energy levels up for all the things we’ve got planned today’
‘Well thanks anyway’ Jake took another deeper sip of coffee this time and began to feel slightly more human.
As he saw Van watching him expectantly Jake felt the need to apologise again for not keeping in touch. ‘Look… Van… I’m so sorry for…’
Van waved off the apology again and gave him a small smile. ‘It’s ok Jake… you’ve already apologised.’ He paused slightly before continuing, hoping to try and find the right words, ‘I won’t pretend that it didn’t hurt. But what I don’t understand is why… I… I thought we’d agreed that we would put that night behind us… forget it had happened’ Van asked and he looked at Jake; searching his face for an explanation.
It suddenly hit Jake as he looked at Van’s open and honest face to see the confusion and dejection written plain across his features, that Van might actually think he was too embarrassed about what had happened that night or that he hadn’t wanted it as much as Van had in the heat of the moment. He had to put that right… couldn’t stand to see Van looking at him like that.
‘You’re right’ Jake breathed out slowly ‘I didn’t mean to hurt you and you deserve an explanation.’ Jake took a deep breath… this was it. It was time to admit to himself as well as to Van just exactly what he was feeling. To admit that seeing Van again had made him realise that he wished they hadn’t agreed that drunken night was a mistake… that it was actually what he wanted. He wanted Van back in his life… and not just as a friend.
‘I… I wish that we hadn’t…’ Jake began to explain softly but was interrupted by the blaring of a car horn outside the building; two short blasts followed by a longer one, signally the arrival of Steve.
‘Shit!’ Van exclaimed, pursing his lips in frustration and annoyance. ‘That guy is always early!’
‘I’ll go stall him… while you get ready’ Van offered as he started to turn towards the door.
Jake sighed in frustration as he watched Van close the door behind him; this conversation would have to wait til later…
…
God… this place was amazing Jake thought to himself as he stood a little apart from Van and his group of friends; admiring the views all around. They stood on the edge of the road overlooking a deep wooded valley with a vista of high rolling hills as far as the eye could see.
The view literally took his breath away and it made him feel humble; it reminded him that these hills had been here long before he was born and would be there long after he was gone. It also made him resolve to seize each and every day and make the most out of his opportunities… like telling Van today how he really felt.
At the thought of Van he turned slightly to see where he was… and as he saw him laughing and joking with his friends… friends that Jake didn’t know, he felt a sense of loneliness and he found himself missing the days when they were on the show and when it seemed like they were almost joined at the hip.
Just as Jake was about to turn back to look at the valley again he saw Van turn towards him; almost as if he knew Jake was thinking about him. Van smiled gently and started to make his way towards Jake.
'Hey’ Van called out softly as he got nearer.
’Hey’ Jake replied and smiled when Van reached the point where he was standing. ‘This place is amazing… I can’t believe we’re only 30 minutes outside of LA’ he shook his head in disbelief as he turned to face the breathtaking view again.
‘Yeah… I know. This is my fifth time up here and it never ceases to amazes me… I don’t ever want to get tired of this view’ he smiled, looking directly at Jake.
‘How did you know it was here?’ Jake asked as he turned to face Van again, finding himself wondering who Van had been up here with.
Van turned his head slightly and nodded in the direction of a dark haired guy who had his arm wrapped round a petite brunette woman, ‘I’ve got Jase to thank for that… we took a drive up here after he’d had a fight with his girlfriend. They’re ok now, in case you were wondering!’ Van smirked as he watched Jase lean down to kiss Vicky before turning to look back at Jake.
Just at that moment a hot breeze swirled over the ridge and swept lose strands of Van’s hair forward across his face and into his eyes. Jake was torn between reaching forward and brushing them out of Van’s eyes or tracing his fingers across the stubble on Van’s upper lip to wipe away the beads of sweat that he noticed had collected there. He clenched his fingers against the desire; telling himself that this wasn’t the place, here in front of Van’s friends. Jake had to look away when Van reached up with his right hand and swept his hair back out of the way.
‘You ok?’ he asked in concern as he bumped Jake’s shoulder gently with his own.
‘Yeah… just a little tired… maybe’ Jake smiled reassuringly as he risked a quick sideways look at Van.
‘Well… we’ll be stopping in a little while anyway. We’ll have something to eat before we get to the fireworks’ Van explained…
…
Van stood and watched as firework after firework lit up the night sky; craning his neck to follow their path before they exploded against the velvety darkness.
He smiled in wonder as he saw the same scene repeated again and again across the night sky; some closer… some further away. He found himself thinking about the people who were watching the fireworks just like him; wondering what kind of lives they led. Were they happy? Did they have people who loved them and did they love them back? He couldn’t help but think of Jake and be thankful that he was here. He knew things were weird between them but at least now that he was here they could talk about it… work it out.
He turned to Jake, about to ask him if he’d seen an especially spectacular firework and found to his surprise that he was no longer standing next to him.
‘Hey Vicky… you seen Jake?’ Van asked, turning to his friend where she stood leaning back into Jase’s embrace.
‘No… he was here a minute ago’ she replied, turning her head to see if she could see Van’s friend.
‘I’ll go look for him’ Van said, slightly worried that Jake hadn’t said where he was going; although the thought did cross his mind that he would feel pretty stupid if Jake had only gone to relieve himself.
‘Take a light with you’ Vicky suggested as she tilted her head back to watch the fireworks again.
‘Yes Mom!’ Van said sarcastically, before chuckling as he bent to pick one up and also paused to grab a blanket; suddenly aware that the night had bought a chill with it after the heat and humidity of the day…
…
Van found Jake a little way off from the group on the other side of a small rocky outcrop. He sat with his knees up to his chest and his back resting against a smooth part of the rock; drawing meaningless patterns in the sand with his fingers.
‘Hey’ Van said softly, not wanting to startle Jake. ‘I thought you might have fallen down a hole!’ he joked in relief at finding him.
Jake looked up at Van; his eyes sparkling in the soft lamp light. ‘And what were you going to do with a light and a blanket?!’ Jake retorted with a good natured smirk.
‘Make myself comfortable while I waited for you to be rescued…duh!’ Van couldn’t help but chuckle; glad to see Jake smiling again.
‘Jerk!’ Jake shot back.
‘Jerk?! Me?! I’m not the one who’s gonna freeze his ass off sitting on the cold ground! Here… help me put this down’ Van instructed as he unfolded the blanket for them both to sit on.
They sat in silence for a little while, content to just watch the fireworks over the other side of the ridge; each lost in their own thoughts.
‘Jake…’
‘Van…’ they both started at the same time and broke into nervous laughter.
‘You first’ Van insisted, with an encouraging nod.
‘Ok’ Jake swallowed nervously as he turned to look at Van. ‘Van… I’m sorry about earlier…’ he held up his hand to stop Van from interrupting him on hearing his apology. ‘What I was trying to tell you… what I wanted to say’. This was it… now or never… why was he finding it so difficult to say what he wanted to say?
Jake took a steadying breath and looked Van full in the face, ‘I wish… we hadn’t agreed that night was a mistake. I didn’t think it was… I wanted it to happen as much as I think you did’
Van’s mouth dropped open in surprise, ‘You did?!’
‘Yeah…’ Jake nodded slowly. ‘I… I think I’m falling in love with you’. There he’d said it… finally said the reason that it was so painful to talk to Van and pretend that what had happened meant nothing.
‘You are?’ Van replied, his eyes open wide in shock.
Van shook his head and a low chuckle escaped his lips. A chuckle that developed into a perplexing laugh; this was not the response that Jake was expecting. In truth he didn’t know how Van would react but this… this hurt.
‘We are so stupid!’ Van finally said, shaking his head in amusement, ‘we should have ‘stupid’ tattooed across our foreheads.’
‘Huh?’ Jake asked in confusion.
‘We have wasted so much time’ Van tried to explain. ‘Don’t… don’t you know that I feel the same. I only agreed that we should forget the whole thing cause I thought that’s what you wanted’. He felt his heart race at the possibility that he hadn’t let himself believe could happen… until now.
‘You do?!’ Jake asked, his smile widening.
‘Mmm…mmmh’ Van nodded in agreement. ‘Let’s not waste anymore time’ he said a little breathlessly as he reached out and traced the pad of his thumb tenderly across Jake’s lips.
Jake’s reply was lost as Van leaned forward to replace his thumb with his lips. The kiss started off slowly, almost tentatively but as Van felt Jake respond to the kiss, he couldn’t resist the temptation to reach up and tangle his fingers in the dark luxuriant hair at the base of Jake’s neck; pulling him in deeper.
‘Vaaan’ Jake groaned into the kiss and found himself wanting to touch… to feel more of Van. Not breaking the kiss, he traced his fingers down the material of Van’s black t-shirt, searching for the hem. He almost sighed with relief as his fingers finally touched the skin under the now offending material; marvelling at the feel of hard muscle under soft skin.
Van pulled back from the kiss as he felt Jake’s hot palms snake sensuously up his torso; his fingers threading through the dusting of his chest hair, pushing his t-shirt up over his chest.
It took all of Van’s willpower to still Jake’s hands with his own as his fingers brushed against his nipples; sending spine tingling sensations of arousal all over his body that made his cock twitch with anticipation. ‘Jake?’ Van asked simply; that one heartfelt word conveying the need to check that this was ok… that they weren’t going to make the same mistake again.
Jake smiled briefly and nodded almost imperceptivity; Van could tell by the hungry look of desire in Jake’s intense gaze that he was going to show him rather than tell him that this was ok… more than ok.
Jake made short work of pulling Van’s t-shirt up and over his head, flinging it to one side before lowering his head to flick his tongue across one nipple and teasing his fingertips across the other. ‘Fuck Jake!’ Van hissed out; hoping that his voice didn’t carry too far as he fisted his fingers into Jake’s hair.
Jake smirked against Van’s chest before sucking the nipple into his mouth as he heard Van’s moan above him.
It was his turn to moan as he felt Van’s hands roam over the expanse of his back, heading down to trace his fingertips over the strip of skin exposed above the waistband of his jeans. ‘God…Vaan’ he gasped; his hot breath ghosting across the sensitive head of Van’s nipple as he felt Van’s long fingers slip under the elastic waistband of his boxer briefs and in between his ass cheeks to tease across his puckered hole. He jolted back in surprise; he’d never had anybody else touch him there before and the intensity of the erotic feeling that surged straight to his cock made him harder than he’d ever been.
‘You like that?!’ Van asked with a smirk, finding himself incredibly turned on that his touch had that effect on Jake as he grabbed the hem of Jake’s grey t-shirt and pulled up and over Jake’s head. That was something they could experiment with later… much later he thought to himself.
Unable to resist touching the smooth expanse of pale skin stretched across taut chest and stomach muscles, he reached out with one hand and sensuously traced a path down Jake’s torso; using his other hand to curl around Jake’s neck to pull him in for a passionate kiss… lips sliding over lips… stubble rasping against stubble.
‘Need you… want you inside me’ Van whispered against kiss moist lips as he palmed Jake’s hard cock through the rough material of his jeans.
The feel of Van’s hand on him seemed to flick a switch deep within him that screamed at him now… need more…now and he rocked back on his heels to fumble at his belt and zip; watching with growing anticipation and desire as Van did the same.
‘So beautiful’ Jake choked out; his voice rough with emotion as he saw Van completely naked for the first time; his hard cock standing proud, his pale skin almost ethereal in the soft glow of the lamp light; the light dusting of hair on his chest and the wispy strands of hair that framed his face. Jake shivered and not just from the cool breeze that blew across his exposed skin but from the enormity of what they were doing.
Van understood completely because he felt the same overwhelming emotions that were mirrored in Jake’s eyes. ‘It’s ok… it’s ok’ he murmured as he moved on to his knees to embrace Jake; holding him tight and kissing the side of his neck in reassurance. ‘It’s still us… we’re ok’ he whispered in between kisses as he worked his way up Jake’s neck to finally reach his lips.
‘Need you Jake… I love you’ he breathed out as they parted and he gazed at Jake with such a deep look of want… need… love and trust that Jake thought his heart would burst with the intensity of it all.
‘Lie back’ Van murmured, placing both his palms flat against Jake’s chest and applied gentle pressure to get him to ease back against the blanket.
Van reached for his jeans and fumbled for his wallet; his fingers suddenly numb. He flipped it open and pulled out a condom and a small packet of lube; praying that it would be enough…it had been a long time since he had been with anybody.
He leaned down to kiss Jake sensually as he handed him the condom before straddling Jake’s hips and resting back onto his thighs; ripping open the packet of lube.
Jake watched in awe as Van quickly prepared himself; one hand coming to rest almost automatically on Van’s hip while he slowly jacked himself with the other.
‘Ready?’ Van panted as he took the open condom packet from Jake before rolling it down Jake’s length.
Rising up onto his knees he locked eyes with Jake as he slowly eased himself down onto his length. He groaned loudly and flung his head back; eyes squeezed shut.
‘Am I hurting you?!’ Jake whispered urgently; the concern clear in his voice. Van felt so tight around him that Jake thought it must hurt.
‘Just give me a minute… it’s been a while’ Van answered through gritted teeth as he adjusted to Jake’s girth. Although concerned for Van, Jake was secretly pleased that he was Van’s first in a long time.
‘Move… Jake…move’ Van’s eyes flicked open and he started to push down against Jake as he wrapped long fingers around his own achingly hard cock.
After a few awkward, almost tentative thrusts where Jake was still scared of hurting Van; they settled into a rhythm of Van’s downward thrusts meeting Jake’s upward roll of his hips. Jake had never felt anything like this…so tight and so hot… and he knew that he wouldn’t last long.
Suddenly the need to touch all of Van overwhelmed him and he pushed up into a sitting position; hoping that the change of angle wouldn’t hurt Van. He captured Van’s lips hungrily with his own; feeling the long strands of Van’s hair tickling the sides of his face.
He groaned into Van’s mouth as he felt Van wrap his legs round his hips; pulling him deeper into him.
‘Harder… Jake’ Van breathed out against Jake’s lips as the change of angle not only trapped his over sensitive cock between their stomachs but also meant that every upward thrust of Jake’s rubbed against his prostate time and time again.
Those breathless words and the feel of Van all around him was just too much for his overwhelmed senses and after one more deep thrust he came with a shuddering intensity, emptying himself into the condom deep within Van.
Van’s own gratifying release followed close behind; the feel of Jake’s cock throbbing deep within him and the delicious friction against his own cock pushed him over the edge and he blew out a shaky breath against Jake’s neck.
After long moments of just holding each other through their post climatic high; their chests heaving together, Jake started to pull himself free. ‘They’ll be coming to look for us soon’ Jake whispered as the unwelcome reality of where they were began to seep in.
‘Wait… not just yet’ Van pleaded; snuggling in a little closer, desperate to keep the outside world at bay for a little longer.
‘I love you’ Jake murmured as he wrapped his arms tighter around Van.
Van smiled against Jake’s neck and pressed a soft kiss to the overheated skin, ‘I love you too!’ his smile widening at those four words he thought he would never get a chance to say to Jake…
…
‘Well… here we are’ Jake said as they stood uncertainly in Van’s hallway outside the spare bedroom door.
They hadn’t said much to each other after they had rejoined the others and the car ride home had found them each lost in their own thoughts; although Jake had smiled tenderly over at Van when he felt Van’s fingers gently squeeze his thigh undercover of the darkness of the back seat when they had dropped everyone else off and it was just them and Steve.
‘It’s been an amazing day Van. Thanks for asking me’ Jake smiled.
‘Your welcome…I’m really… really glad you came! Van replied with a shrug and a lop sided grin… still able to feel the sensation of the fullness of Jake.
Jake started to turn towards the door; uncertain whether he should follow Van down the hall to his bedroom or stay in the spare room.
‘No…Jake… no’ Van said as he reached out and grasped his shoulder, stopping him from turning away. He ran his hand gently down Jake’s muscled arm to interlink their fingers ‘I don’t want us to make the same mistake the second time around… we’re not walking away from each other this time’. Van’s smile was irresistible and Jake found himself grinning back at him as he let himself be led by the hand towards Van’s bedroom.
The End
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