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all this power and no one to save

Mar 15, 2005 20:59

I was sitting on the counter in the hotel's kitchen eating a sandwich Xander had made. He was finishing up his own; I was watching him. His mood had changed from out of it, to angry, to forlorne to well hungry I guess. I was really interested in my sandwich, it was probably because I still felt kind of akward over his question that I hadn't really ( Read more... )

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one_who_sees March 16 2005, 21:43:55 UTC

"So are you alright? I mean it's a stupid question I guess."

I nodded but then regretted it because it wasn't stupid. I didn't really know. I had dismissed everything quickly after the phone incident and now I was chomping away at a sandwich. I set mine down and took a swig of beer and then set that down too.

Buffy stood in contemplation and I waited paitently while she thought. She looked seriously conflicted until my suspicions had been answered. She threw the glass down and it shattered. I flinched and half yelled, "Buffy!"

I stood for a second taking everything in and leaned against the sink. I began to grab up the glass but accidentally cut myself and dropped it again. The shard flew back into the sink further shattering it. I sighed.

"It's not fair Buff...but I guess it's life. It's our life."

superhero_grrl March 17 2005, 18:28:22 UTC

I sighed when I noticed his cut and grabbed a paper towel, taking his hand and pressing the towel on the cut.

"It think it's time for life to stop sucking now. It's been one huge suck fest since I was called, I can't protect the people I love, I can't save them or help them. What's the point in having this kind of power if you can't do any good with it. Whoo hoo, I save strangers but what about the people who matter to me? Am I not allowed to have them? Is that how this works."

By the end of my little speech I was yelling to the ceiling, or well the damn powers that be.

"Angel got angry, you got angry and now I'm angry, i'm just a little behind ok."

one_who_sees March 19 2005, 03:03:00 UTC

Buffy tended to my cut and I sort of leaned into her. No, no feelings right now. No squishy..kissy feelings...this is a tense moment full of broken glass not..kissing. I sighed and looked up as Buffy spoke.

"It think it's time for life to stop sucking now. It's been one huge suck fest since I was called, I can't protect the people I love, I can't save them or help them. What's the point in having this kind of power if you can't do any good with it. Whoo hoo, I save strangers but what about the people who matter to me? Am I not allowed to have them? Is that how this works."

I quieted Buffy down and held her. "Sometimes, it works that way. But look how many times you saved Willow and I...and Giles. He practically got knocked on the head every other week."

I laughed as she continued.

"Angel got angry, you got angry and now I'm angry, i'm just a little behind ok."I nodded and hugged her again. "It's ok to be a little behind." I smiled and those damn fuzzy (and I swear pink) feelings returned. To kiss or not to kiss. I opted the not. ( ... )

superhero_grrl March 20 2005, 03:46:53 UTC

"Sometimes, it works that way. But look how many times you saved Willow and I...and Giles. He practically got knocked on the head every other week."

He tried to comfort me and it helped, a little bit and I instantly felt like the same old selfish little girl.

"I couldn't save Jenny, Tara, My mom, Not only did I shove a sword through Angel and send him to hell, he came back and walked away from me. Spike burned to death in front of my eyes, All the causualties of Sunnydale. Dawn's had to grow up so fast because of me, I may have jumped off that tower for her but she suffered still."

"It's ok to be a little behind."

He kept hugging me and finally I pulled away, I didn't feel like I should be comforted. I sighed heavily and looked up.

"Yeah well it's new for me."

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