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When you break up with someone you feel like shit and think that maybe you just made the biggest mistake of your life (which is basically impossible being only in high school). But at the time you don’t realize this. Next you try desperately to fix things by being just “friends” with this person--which of course never actually happens because it is clearly impossible. Over time you begin to realize this, and grow to accept the fact that some people only wanted you as a girlfriend, and never really wanted to be your friend. This hurts even more. Maybe you want to be my friend, but it doesn’t feel like it. The thing that hurts the most is you begin to think that every nice thing they ever said or did for you, was just a lie that meant entirely nothing, and was only there to kill time. That is exactly how I feel. I feel that I was just there for you to kill time.