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I finally finished the puzzle in my room:
Isn't it pretty? The sky took me ages because it was all the same colour!
It's so cold today. It's grey and rainy and...here...look for yourself!
Crap hey!
The way that I see myself is getting worse. A lot worse. I went shopping for jeans. I almost ended up smashing the mirror in the changing room. I then went to get a jumper instead and cracked the shits by that time. I had an anxiety attack while I was in the changing room...but I was by myself. Everytime I see myself in the mirror, I want to scream. I want to rip my body to pieces. My stomach, my thighs, my butt, my arms, my hips...I can't look in a mirror...right now, i'm serious, i'll smash the mirror...I want to recover. But I feel revolting. I LOOK revolting. I have put on so much FUCKING weight from this snack plan. I'm huge. FUCKING HUGE! I wanted to scream while I was in my car...I couldn't...Ed wouldn't let me. I just...it's my fault. I'm eating WAY too much. My skins crap too...EVERYTHING IS DISGUSTING!
Isn't it pretty? The sky took me ages because it was all the same colour!
It's so cold today. It's grey and rainy and...here...look for yourself!
Crap hey!
The way that I see myself is getting worse. A lot worse. I went shopping for jeans. I almost ended up smashing the mirror in the changing room. I then went to get a jumper instead and cracked the shits by that time. I had an anxiety attack while I was in the changing room...but I was by myself. Everytime I see myself in the mirror, I want to scream. I want to rip my body to pieces. My stomach, my thighs, my butt, my arms, my hips...I can't look in a mirror...right now, i'm serious, i'll smash the mirror...I want to recover. But I feel revolting. I LOOK revolting. I have put on so much FUCKING weight from this snack plan. I'm huge. FUCKING HUGE! I wanted to scream while I was in my car...I couldn't...Ed wouldn't let me. I just...it's my fault. I'm eating WAY too much. My skins crap too...EVERYTHING IS DISGUSTING!