I'm living in Lansing now. Im not sure how I like it just yet. Im hoping once i get a steady income and start meeting people, get into the routine of things, everything will start to get better ( Read more... )

im 18 wooowooo!!!!!

so, i have a boyfriend, and he is one of the coolest people ive ever met.

that is all.

Getting your widsom teeth out is sweet.
                                                sarcasm.

Im bored. My gums wont stop bleeding. and i look like a chipmunk.

savemeplease.?

I move tomorrow.
Im in love.
and im leaving it all behind.

my only regret is not moving to another state.

i move friday. i am excited and nervous. im in need of a change, and i think it will be good for me.

im not sure why i am so attracted to assholes, and dont care about the boys that would actually be good for me.

i miss a lot of things, a lot of people, a lot of the way my life used to be. and even though i didnt realize how good i had it, i do now ( Read more... )

im sorry, summer just reminds me of you.

I hung out with Samantha all day today. We layed out and swam in here grandmas pool. Now im getting ready to go hang out with her, again. 1 month until we have our own apartment in lansing. =) people need to visit.

Im going to head automatica tomorrow with carrie and brandon. it should be fun, i am excited.
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im a professional
         at being the mess.

i feel stupid. i have no one to blame but myself. 
i bring things on to myself. and i think i am finally
realizing, im the one fucking up. i dont like who i am
right now. i wish i could rewind my life and do everything
differently. i want people to understand, im really not
ever intentionally trying to be a ( Read more... )

I wish he would have been there to see me graduate.

Each days goes on and more and more i feel like im losing myself.

I dont think ill ever be the same as i was,
and i just want to be who i used to be.

I miss my family. I miss taking everything for granted. I miss my dad.

i feel so out of control of everything.

fuuuck.

So- me and Samantha found an apartment in lansing... right across from the meridian mall. 2 bedroom. 1.5 bathrooms. Dear god, please let there be cute fun boys in lansing, that dont freak me the fuck out. I cant wait to go. Im in need of a change, and it isnt looking any better around here.