I was feeling good about my new painting until now... now i think i have royally fucked it up, its so not how i envisioned it. it's still early days, but once it gets to a bad point you just feel like throwing it in the bin. it doesnt look anything much like my last painting and doesnt possess the seductive qualities the first one had. im putting ( Read more... )

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Wow the thing i never thought would happen, has happened...

I GOT MY P's
HOLY FUCKSTICKS.

But i dont feel excited , whats wrong with me? perhaps its that built up hype where,  coz every one else cares so much and you expect a big bang and coolness to happen but when u get it its really quite boring? thats how i feel, i also feel like i dont deserve ( Read more... )

"Sometimes that i feel, that i am drunk behind the wheel, the wheel of possibilty, where-ever it may roll ( Read more... )

im so bored. and now i do have those little lumps on my lymph nodes from chronic fatigue even though i feel lots better from refusing works cunt-face shifts. i dont know how much longer i can last, i really dont. if i do work the amount i should, i get sicker again but if i dont i dont earn much at all, and its almost just better getting another ( Read more... )

so anyway im awake, and i thought id tell mum about a car at car city i saw on the net, and its awsome for what i want it for, its a huyundi excell and cute and purple and little and an auto. but then she starts ripping into me instead of being supportive and saying it  "is unsafe"  which is bullshit because what car under $10,000 is? i only want a ( Read more... )

So basically, i've been feeling sick for a fair while now, made worse by working 32 hours a week at nightfill which feels like it's killing me, and it litterally is. im damn sure this is what i have. i have basically every sympton here, and a couple i have'nt included, coz i dont have them. the shittest part is chronic fatigue has no propper cure, ( Read more... )

I'm so sick of feeling like shit on a very bent and shitty stick. my back has hurt since ages and now all the glands on my neck are up and wont go down. it feels all sore, achey and swollen and hurts to move. it doesnt matter if i sleep more or less etc it wont fix itself.  AND not only that i've had constant headaches past 2 weeks. it just wont go ( Read more... )

God i have cravings all the time and unless im the virgin mary(seeming i havent had sex in ages, shhhh) i guess its just me. at the moment im deperate for nachos!!! i gorge myself on them like every day and i happened to run out today and couldnt go get more as i dont drive and i cant turn up at coles when i declined work. i know my dad has some ( Read more... )

I must be the most boring person ever i feel like i never have anything interesting to write or any new developments on old problems.

havent decided anyhign yet abotu next year except I KNOW  i want to go to university. unfortunatly i havent decided on the course the city or the uni!!!! its like saying " i want to fly next year to the moon" but i ( Read more... )