Where were you while the world was falling apart

[whimsikalsavage]

It's been a long time. I was excited to tell my stories about my delivery of my beautiful son, Preston, but after Ambrosia died, the wind was just sucked out of my sails. It feels like my family has been living in an alternate reality. Shit hit the fan with everything at home, Frankie, my stepfather called my mom a murderer and said it was her

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[shoocu_shoocu]

I am here from the rezaaslan lj group.

Congratulations on your baby! I am pregnant myself right now and I feel really happy for you. And I sorry for your major, major loss. you are having to cope with two big life changes, one life affirming, the other so not, at the same time.

My husband and I lost a friend to suicide a couple of years ago. My husband was the person who found him dead. The tragedy brought up so many complex feelings in everyone, but especially in his family members. Suicide always does. The important things to remember are that the suicide is not your fault and that your feelings are part of a natural process of healing. (Grief counseling is always an option. There are free suicide survivor support groups in many areas.)

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you.

[whimsikalsavage]

thank you so much. I have been getting some information about the survivor support groups around where i live. congrats and thank you so much. sometimes it really takes someone on the outside to make you realize these feelings are normal and that i am not going crazy.

[shoocu_shoocu]

I'm glad my comment wasn't too intrusive.And thank you for the congratulations, too.

I know you will find peace with this over time... it's too bad we can't fast forward through all these difficult hours. (But then again, you don't want to miss the miraculous daily changes in your child! Ugh, the juxtaposition is just so tough! I'm so sorry.)

[holly_go_noor]

I'm sorry, I have no idea what to say in these situations. I'm so sorry your family has gone through this. I know things were tense between you guys for awhile. I know these things tear families apart - I wish it wasn't doing that to yours.

And whoever is telling CPS that is an asshole.

That video made me tear up.

**hugs**

[writtenbyhand]

Hey there, I just saw this entry now (after two months!) and I hope you and your family are doing well. I know there's no "getting over" a loved one passing, but I'm sure they would have us continue the best way we can.

I'm glad to hear about Preston too. I hope you write more about him! Stay strong. :)