So I know there is likely nobody who shall read this, and it doesn't seem to matter. I suppose that's what it's all about. I've been looking back on my old journal entries, my old selves, it seems like I lost them a long time ago. Am I still that bubbly whore, lonely and involved in everything that doesn't concern me? I feel so different, as ( Read more... )

it's been awhile. Oh well. drifting into oblivion with every second ( Read more... )

Wow.. it's been soo long since i updated. so I had a messed up weekend, nothing new there ( Read more... )

He he.
school is back! and I haven't been late yet.
I think that this year is gonna be great.
It better!!!
and I just rode on a motorcycle.
peachy keen! I like them lots

Sooo. sociality was cool. I had fun at cassie's party and beyond.
I'm scared of school starting on monday. all the people will make me die.
but it's ok, because I HAVE A COFFEE MACHINE.

Wow. So i've been the most anti-social person in the world this summer. I have hung out with a group of people who hide in their rooms all summer just like me sometimes, but that's it. and for the first time all summer I feel social. I WANT TO HANG OUT WITH PEOPLE! yay ( Read more... )

today is decent. I'm not mentioning anything about greek gods ( Read more... )

I know this will just make people think I'm even worse,
but I just met the most attractive man ever in existance.
as I've told ethan like 30 times today, I just slept with a greek god
wow.

oh, and I have the new harry potter book
I looked at the end, and have sad spoilers stuck in my head.
love!

Well there is this:DisorderRatingParanoid:ModerateSchizoid:LowSchizotypal:Very HighAntisocial:HighBorderline:ModerateHistrionic:Very HighNarcissistic:Very HighAvoidant:HighDependent:HighObsessive-Compulsive:High
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and there is the fact that I really need to clean the house and clean ( Read more... )

I just got back from a weeklong buddhist retreat, and dealt with lots of emotional shit.
I missed lots of parties, and lots of fun.
I just want to feel right again.
will somebody please love me? make me feel less hollow, less lost.
more real... I feel so alone.