And i see my fat tummy and fat arms and now larger thighs and i am really doing something about it. only like 2 meals a day or so and snacking on healthy crap not junk food.

i hate the way i look. it depresses me....

i just worked out for 2 hours today and i was all sweaty. :P

But yeah my diet is working. I take in about 1000 - 1100 calories a day which is needed for me to fuction properly ( Read more... )

I'm having trouble going on a diet. No i am not going to be having my anorexic momments again, but i want to eat healthier and loose wieght in a very healthy manner ( Read more... )

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Sometimes I just can't be left alone. When it happens i always want to cling onto someone i care about. I just can't be okay on my own. The last few months I've shown symptoms and just something doesn't feel right inside of my mind. I might just go to some therapy appointments in the Behavioral Medicine Department at Lahey Clinic. Talking to a ( Read more... )

I have this stupid sore throat that won't go away.

I keep taking nyquil and sleeping but nothing seems to help.
my mom said it was viral so idk.

i wish it would go away!!

I haven't updated in a while. Dave came home, and i played hard to get. I've been doing it often and it seems to work. He always wants to touch me. LOL. I care so much about Dave. Lately, I've been stressed out because I fear the day Dave leaves for whenever he is going for idk how long. I really want him to stay. I'm stressing because he is going ( Read more... )

I'm an idiot, i thought things were the way they were from what i heard and stuff happened... i feel a weight off my shoulders. it's one less thing i have to worry about.

<3 you..

I'm leaving it up to him.

And i'm backing off.

I know you care and love me alot.
You wont admit the love part.
We've been together for a year.
I know it means alot to you. thats why we're on this break.

Now it's time for me to have fun.
And stop dwelling on this. im forcing myself to STOP.
im making myself miserable...

i wish this break never happened.. but i can't change the past.