I had a dream last night that one of my gerbils died and I was talking to Gerdy on the way to my house saying,"I think one of my gerbils died cuz I dreamt about it." So I get home and I start to go in my room and I'm like,"ok...he's dead. I just know it." I walk in my room and he's in the corner..dead. I'm a freak. It makes me really sad. I'm a bad ( Read more... )

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School started today. It was ok I guess. I forgot how many morons I went to school with though. Gar. People can be so dumb. But I can be too...I felt really insecure going back. I got this feeling that...I'm just not good enough for anyone/anything...I'm not a very artistic person...I'm not very musical...I'm not very smart...I'm not very pretty or ( Read more... )

School starts Tuesday. Jesus God. So soon? Grumph. Oh well. I'm kinda looking forward to it. I can't stand the idea of waking up at like, 7 every morning but oh well. I don't work til Saturday so I guess that's a good thing. Kinda not. Cuz I work first shift Saturday AND Sunday so I won't really be able to sleep in. Grr. Oh well. Then again it's ( Read more... )

Ok. Moving within the next week. School starts in one week. And me and Andy have been broken up for about 2 months. I don't want to talk to Andy for a very long time. I have a plan to just..ditch him. The last time I'll see him is Saturday..and then after that I'm going to give up. He's not going to know my new number..my cell phone isn't in ( Read more... )

You were a cold,
winter night..
and the dead silence drove me
to die in vain...
This lust I feel for you
has suppressed my inner being.
Each night I can only imagine
where you are
and why you aren't with me.
You aren't next to me...
in me...
you aren't around at all.
The dead silence has spoken
and told me it's
the end.

Ok so..updates. I feel like writing...but not poetry. And I usually only write poetry on my Xanga sooo I'm gonna write an actual "journal entry" on here....moving on...
<<<>>>Ok. Moving out sometime within the next 2 weeks.
<<<>>>School starts in like, a week.
<<<>>>Me and Andy are still broken up...
<<<>>>I went to my FIRST CONCERT Wednesday:) Fun ( Read more... )

I had the saddest dream last night ( Read more... )

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...and when you left ( Read more... )