Maddie is confused, and goes on longer than usual.

Aug 29, 2008 17:20

He used to drag me away from the Kodo.  He didn't like the crowds.  I never thought I'd just run into him there, standing on the lane, chatting as if he hadn't been missing for weeks.  To a Grimtotem woman!

He got wild eyed when he saw me and ran away.  I was too shocked by it all to do anything.  I felt bad for badgering that poor woman, but I hoped she knew something.  I was so relieved to see him alive and looking well.  I was so glad that he wasn't some shooting star, gone off to the ancestors like Fertt suggested.

All she could say was something about dreams.  It's been nothing but dreams since he showed up.  Since he offered to help Guni.  Since I took him into my home off the Gold Road when he was just a stranger needing some company.  We got through dreams.  We handled them.  Why did he run when it's his turn to be taken care of?  Why did he go to strangers and not to friends, not to home?

He said something about it not being safe before he ran off.  Not safe?  Then why was he in a crowded tavern instead of coming home to the people worried about him?  I'm used to not being safe.  My life is about danger.  I'm part of a militia that sees frequent action.  I'm a soldier.  A fighter.  A front line fighter, at that.  I'm the shield that breaks the enemy's charge, so the Hammer has time to fall.  It's my job to be a bulwark against the storm.  I'm a protector.  I would have shielded him from anything, just as I would any of my friends.

We always said we could weather things better together than apart.  My shield arm is stronger now than it ever has been.

Everyone says I should talk to him, but how can I when he runs away?  They offered help, but what can we do if he stays missing?

I only want to help my friend.  My family.

I don't know what to do.

I don't know who else to ask.

maddie

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