Sitting in Mine Centre..Waiting for supper...Shishkabobs..yum yum..Everyone is outside..Its too hot though..and theres too many kids..

I feel bad about last night..I didnt want the conversation to end up that way..I'm really sorry we have to talk about the same shit all the time.. No more..I'm so sorry..Its done. I dont care. It wasnt even ( Read more... )

When will I learn?

What will it take for things to change?

Why can't I just be happy?  Have someone treat me like I'm important. Like I mean something to them. To ANYONE! I want to be more than an after thought. The last person anyone thinks of when they think about people or stuff to do. Is it because I'm stuck at home?  ( Read more... )

WAR ALL OF THE TIME!

Sometimes it feels like every thing I do,

Everything I say has to have an explanation.

Has to be understood or scrutinized.

When really sometimes I just say shit, and I dont give a FUCK what people think or whether or not the things I'm saying even makes sence to people.

I have to fight to be heard
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Here you stand seething with guilt.
  Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
The look stapled on your face cries out for forgiveness,
the one thing that I CANNOT give.

Did you ever see that one person
   and the way they do these things and it hurts you so much it's like choking choking choking    down the embers

I can ( Read more... )

So I've gone almost a week without weed..so many times I've been tempted..Everyone I hang out with gets high..Even the people I work with.. But I've stuck it out and now i hardly feel the temptation anymore..except last night I had a dream abotu getting high with Amanda and Randi and Matt..I woke up this morning craving that baked feeling...but it ( Read more... )

So today was my last meeting with the Forehead aka Mr. Beck. He said there is no point in scheduling anymore meetig since my curfew is lifted in 16 days. I CANT WAIT!! Aw man the night its lifted (which is the 28th @ midnight) I'm going out. Dont know where yet. Who wants to hang out after midnight? Anywhere but my house ( Read more... )

So I didnt quit smoking yet...It will be done tomorrow though for sure. or I will be upset with myself. I gotta show everyone I can do it. Since no one believes me ( Read more... )

So I rented a new video game. God of War. Man is it intense. I'm addicted. I also rented Constantine. We'll see how that is ( Read more... )

This is a lonely day in the life of Nathan. I dont mean to sound melodramatic..I just feel like I lost my best friend. And I'll never have her back in the same way. I'm sorry anything ever went wrong between us. I'm sorry I couldnt be better for you. I'm sorry i was a jerk when we were going out. All I ever wanted was the same love from you that i ( Read more... )

Why Cant People Just Understand ( Read more... )