How am I supposed to feel?

[white_iris_down]

Ok, so after 5 months I am so sick of this I am just going to write it on livejournal and hope that someone out there can point me in the direction of hope.AAAAAA

Comments

Here's an outsider's perspective.

[kalharia]

I would have posted something, but as I was reading over/rewritting and all I came to a realization:

I am not the kind of person who can answer the questions you are asking. At least not the questions in this post. I don't dance, and I don't wear a cross (although I do like to believe that I try to act as though my service is sworn to Him). So I doubt I can answer the questions you want answered here.

I do wish to talk with you though. Look me up online.

[blastus]

As Kalharia, I cannot answer the questions you raise as you wish them to be answered. However, I do have a track record of helping you see things in a different light.

When I first came across this I had been up for 24 hours, most of which had been spent in various airports (Gatwick is a fine place to spend the night, by the by). Now I am still tired, but for what it's worth I looked on Skype and you were not around. On the bright side, I have heard through other media that you have improved in outlook.

I'll be praying for you. I don't know when we might next speak, but maybe it shall be soon.

First reaction to "direction of hope": "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see" (Hebrews 11:1). Your assignment for our next conversation is to read the eight verses leading up to this. :c)

Dancing and Creeps... Part 1

[whitesilk]

I thought it couldn't hurt to give you my thoughts. It took up more room than I thought it would and will take up 1+ message... if you have time to read

Re: Dancing and Creeps... Part 2

[whitesilk]

[Re/ the creeps, I informed a couple good leads and my brother who took care of part of it last week. I talked with one of the good leads, a good dancer in his 40s who works at Northside Church - very intelligent and good conversation. We had a long chat at an afterparty one night and I thought that was good. There goes the dang trust again; no cross, but smart musical church guy used to ministry who talks a good game. So now, he wants to dance with me all the time. I'm not keen since I like to spread out my attention

Dancing and Creeps... Last Part

[whitesilk]

[I could have watched myself and put the brakes on some of the moves, or used my free hand to maintain modest dancing behaviour

Perhaps the question should be "how DO you feel?"

[red_wyvern]

Sometimes there can be a great gulf between how you think you should feel and how you actually do feel

Thanks

[white_iris_down]

Thanks you guys, just knowing you care and reading your advice and thoughts really helps