I have moved to DW, by the way.

[whiteadelphi]

So I'm sort of waking up on a metaphoric level and finally feeling the desire to re-engage with the world in general. Uh, probably not a huge surprise to anyone, but the lack of posting on LJ has just been a side effect of a pretty huge withdrawal from just about everything ever

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[whiteadelphi]

This would be awesome! Monday and Tuesday are indeed cooler, so we can arrange meeting/wandering around then? |D Well...probably not Monday, I have to attend a whole bunch of open day things for uni >.>

[reverancepavane]

You've just reawakened an old genetic memory of the times when things with far too many angles came down from the open skies to prey on proto-humanity.

[Actually the vertigo effect is actually very indicative of what is commonly referred to as agoraphobia as it involves switching into unwanted hyperfocus (and an accompanying awareness of space that surrounds you, or in this case lies above you). But then agoraphobia covers a whole range of different mental dysfunctions. I mean, literally it refers "fear of markets," so is associated with both unwanted spatial awareness and fear of gatherings of people in the Manual of Diseases of the Mind. And each of these generally have different causative effects. But, then, I am not a psychotherapist so ignore anything I say.]

[whiteadelphi]

I was actually wondering if it was just a vertical perspective thing, so that makes a fair amount of sense to me.

[kokoronagomu]

wish i was there, i would walk with you (only after the sun went down though). i really don't have a problem with crowds except for the perfumes.

glad they're giving you counseling and not charging. hopefully they give you coping exercises to help you deal with future anxiety attacks.

i believe that for what you had gone through in your life you're extremely well grounded.

-- my husband's mother had paranoid schizophrenia and she had emotionally and physically abused him when he was little. when he was three she shot him through the stomach, four she overdosed him with tranquilizers. she used to lock him in a closet or lay atop him holding his arms out to the side and expound on the 'horrors of hell' if he wasn't respectful and perfectly behaved... he's got emotional and mental scars. counseling, therapy and the occasional antidepressant when he gets too anxious has all helped.
i wish you all the best. :hugs:

[whiteadelphi]

Oh my goodness, that is a horrifying thing for him to go through. :hugs:

Thank you for the thought. I'm sure I'll end up dealing with this just fine, and hopefully going to university will ground me just a little more.

[jane_drew_]

If I were there, I would totally go for walks and so on! (and, um, admittedly, some of that would be HALP I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT ADELAIDE OR WHERE ANYTHING IS, but mostly it would be YAY NEKO!).

Great to hear from you; great that things are progressing in a forwardly direction!

And, also? I cannot express how happy I am that the skeevy doctor retired.

(ps, what are your current thoughts re: eventually someday there will be a trip to the US, while I think to ask about that... I don't know why, unless it's my brain's logical extension of "getting out of the house, well, let's go across an ocean!"))

[whiteadelphi]

LMAO I suspect going for huge walks with you all round town would be very fun. :D And re: skeevy doctor, ME TOO. I'm getting so much better care now.

(I would still absolutely love to come to the US to visit! I just keep running into the "three months with no cash, hence just spent everything I had saved for such a possible opportunity" problem. Maybe I willb e able to manage it as part of student exchange for university! Though I...still think that costs me a whole bunch. 8|a Nevertheless, it's still an option for somewhere in the future hopefully! Because I do want to meet you all a great deal.)

[guardantares]

Hi Neko,

Sadly I am in the same boat as JD. However I want to send you my love and remind you that you are easily one of the top ten awesome babes in my life. You are a seriously bad ass lady and I am so proud of you for being brave enough to not only seek out help but accept it. *HUGSHUGSHUGS*

[whiteadelphi]

Thank you so much! <33 *MANY HUGS BACK*

I will try to be around more often and not vanish off the face of the earth!