Comments | whiteadelphi: Aha! (With a side order of yes, I keep forgetting to come back here)

whiteadelphi

Aha! (With a side order of yes, I keep forgetting to come back here)

Nov 09, 2015 17:19

My problem with writing is really tied into this whole depression thing-- I can go for days feeling absolutely fine in an abstract sort of way, but those are also the days I just don't think about anything. I sit there and literally play games. All. Day. Unless I'm working. Then I work and go back to playing games. If I stop doing that and go ( Read more... )

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whiteadelphi November 11 2015, 16:29:39 UTC

It's the effort, and the fact that trying to do anything productive involves engaging my brain to actually think. Where was I up to? What was I going to do next? And then if I start thinking, I start thinking about everything (how I'm depressed, how much I really can't stand my life, etc, all those big and little traumas that led me here) and that doesn't help.

But I remember enjoying writing, and I know a facet of depression is just taking away your love and interest of everything, so I figure if I can just somehow break through that, then... maybe. I'll try. :) I do know that through these days I've been working I've looked forward to trying again, so that's a start.

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whiteadelphi November 15 2015, 11:30:50 UTC

Thank you!

shiegra November 10 2015, 05:00:29 UTC

It's almost scary to hear you describe this because so much of it is so similar to what depression is putting me through. But yay for things enlivening and your dreams getting interesting again! Sometimes when the old chestnut about a little each day seems incredibly intimidating or uninteresting I try writing something really weird or simply out of my usual interests, something I don't necessarily see myself ever expanding but can be low-stress and interesting to explore.

whiteadelphi November 13 2015, 10:14:23 UTC

I wouldn't be surprised-- I get the impression this is what a lot of people go through when they're in our boat. Good luck, though. I know how much it sucks. ><

Something weird is an interesting idea, actually! I think I might also try giving that a shot. (Once my health recovers anyway-- I got hit with the bug from hell, bah.)

shiegra November 13 2015, 17:24:08 UTC

I hope you feel better soon!

whiteadelphi November 14 2015, 10:30:48 UTC

Thank you! Slight improvement every day, so I'll get there.

kokoronagomu December 4 2015, 15:40:20 UTC

hi, so glad to see you! sorry i'm late in commenting but watching two grand-babies is rather taxing. i saw a TED talk about faking it until you make it and your efforts sound a lot like that. little steps and improvements. it's exciting to see your update alert!... now to get a minute to read your new chapter (so behind).
hang in there! *hugs*