Rain plodding down on the roof. Everything appears dimmed, subdued this morning. The headache I woke up with is sneaking away a little bit. Sleep hasn't come easily for a few nights. Guilt and short-term anxiety has, this itching frustration over day-to-day events. Feeling guilty over spending money makes me feel more materialistic then the act ( Read more... )

( In 2005... )

How do you not get troubled by these things ( Read more... )

I want to spend money at MAC and buy new colorful eyeshadows. It's probably me struggling to grasp at the past femininity I used to care way more about. I don't even wear eyemakeup most of the time. I haven't plucked my eyebrows in a while. I wear boyish canvas sneakers. It's great. Trying to maintain a past addiction for whatever's sake ( Read more... )

I'm thinking of being the Absinthe Fairy from Moulin Rouge for Halloween. I don't know if I can pull together a costume that'll suffice in time, but I'm inspired.
I bought books today: Feminism & Contemporary Art: The Revolutionary Power of Women's Laughter and Echoes: Contemporary Art at the Age of Endless Conclusions. Mmm, art books. Orca ( Read more... )

okay. so. today... hmm... frawhhh... work on seminar commentary, work on self-directed learning plan, and revise that essay ( Read more... )

( really long meaningless list of me things )

So I just gave Lyd this online beneficial spiel about how she has so much time to do good things with her life, and so what if she doesn't know what she wants to do; she could do anything, she could go to another country and help people, etc. Now I want to, too. Maybe here though for now. I think in the upcoming week I'll get in touch with the ( Read more... )

living in a place where you hear the rain before you see it.
and when you see it, the textures of criss-crossing droplets contrasted against grey skies are mesmerizing.

My parents are visiting today. Should be here in 2 hours.
I've got a terrible cold. I'm tired. I'm getting frustrated with myself. I've done enough homework for now. Do I go to sleep and hope my headache doesn't start up again... go walking and hope to clear the thoughts in my head... go find friend people and ... no...
30min nap break from