Sunshine Girl
Despite the continuous rainfall outside, I could still hear his soft snoring as I watched him sleep. It was still dark outside, just like when I got inside their dorm but I didn’t bother to know what time it was, I never really care about anything when we’re together. It had been ten minutes since I woke up and decided to roll over my stomach so I can have better view of his face.
He had his arm resting on his forehead, covering a partial part of his closed eyes. His mouth was slightly opened, showing how tired he was from the band activities that assumed right after his set of drama filming. I almost giggled in amusement with how his snore was blending with the beautiful sound of the rain.
I was playing with my feet, bending it back and forth while my eyes wouldn’t stop looking at my favorite guy in the world. But I wouldn’t let my father know it because he might love him like a son, I know that he wouldn’t like the news at all. Even when we were doing the show, my parents had been treating him well and warmer than we both expected. Though they’ve only met once, short enough with sincere greeting and small talks. Whenever I came by our house to spend a few days with them, they would show off their ‘in-law’ relationship with him, he never told me he was sending gifts for them randomly.
Then suddenly I remembered a thought that had been bugging me for weeks, I groaned in my mind and lay on my back and studied his room’s white ceiling. We would be celebrating our 600th day in three weeks and I haven’t thought of anything at all. I’ve been making handmade presents every time that I have run out of ideas already. And my sisters couldn’t give me proper suggestions.
“Buy him something he likes” Jessica replied, nonchalantly. She was busy texting her latest date that she wouldn’t use her brain for me.
“He could buy anything with his money, unnie!” I reasoned out, nose fuming with so much air in frustration.
“Treat him out?” Sooyoung suggested with stars in her eyes as if she was imagining herself with a date.
“We’ve done that during our first year and 500th date, remember?”
“There’s nothing wrong with repeating gifts or stuffs like these, Joohyun-ah. You can just make a simple letter and he would love you even more” Tiffany said sincerely, her eyes sympathetic towards me. She patted my head for a moment before walking to her room.
I sighed at the thought of our discussion about it, being the perfectionist that I was, I wanted more and different each celebration. I didn’t like the thought of him getting tired of the same routine.
While carefully hopping out of his bed, I consciously wore his sweatshirt that was on his office chair, shaking my head that it only reached a few inches lower than my buttocks. I picked up our clothes that was scattered on the floor and put it on the side. I ran an eyeful at his messy study table, music sheets scattered all over his keyboard, his musical equipments increasing like the number of my visits and I smiled at the small space at the left corner, just beside the monitor, was a selca I took for the fans.
“Oh” I whispered as an invisible bulb popped into my mind.
I quickly grabbed my bag and got my diary. I knew I made a noise as I dropped on the foot of his bed, I scribbled a quick ‘Call his mother’ on a page where I put my ideas about our special day.
“Joohyun-ah” I heard his sleepy and low voice called, his hands were already wrapping on my waist as I turned my head to look at him. “Why are you awake?” I smiled at how his eyes would always look so puffy whenever he wakes up. He rested his head on my shoulder, giving me a back hug.
“Hmmm” I replied, resting my back on his, feeling his bare chest on mine. I casually flipped the pages of the diary he gave as a New Year present, something he bought in Japan. I let him leave a light kisses over my neck and small part of my exposed shoulder. “I love you, goddess” I heard him reminding me, turning my head to meet with his awaiting lips.
I had my mind flying about my present while kissing him back in slow pace. I groaned in annoyance when I couldn’t concentrate on his lips anymore that I had to pull back. He looked at me blankly and I heaved a large amount of relief sigh when he was too sleepy to make his brain work.
I tried to stand when he tightened his arm around me, “Oppa I’m just going to look at the time” I explained in a ‘There-goes-my-choding-of-a-boyfriend’ tone.
He chuckled and reluctantly let me go. I grabbed his watch that was on his table, “4.24 in the morning” I read, pouting. “Let’s go out?” I offered, checking the rain outside.
“But we’re going out already” He replied mischievously, his toothy smile back again to tease more. “Sure, babe” He added few seconds later when I glared at him as a reply.
“Sleep for some more. I’ll wake you up after I’m done preparing” I informed, sliding my bag over my shoulder and bended down to kiss him. But since he was in the mood to be his usual playful self, he settled his hands on my shoulder to deepen the kiss more and shortly dragged me down on top of him. He roamed his hand on my thigh, earning a soft moan from me. I couldn’t help it when his touch sent me a good amount of electricity enough to leave me breathless and hungry for him.
In the end, we ended up cuddling each other to sleep. Nothing more, we decided to give our virginities to each other during our 500th day celebration, maybe letting the pressure of romantic yacht date and the perfect moment and feeling we had that we ended up showing our most vulnerable and more different sides to each other. There was something deeper in us then, it felt like we could grasp the feelings we had for each other every single time we became one, showing how serious we were in whatever we have.
“Hey, what’s up?” My oppa asked when he came back from the buffet table to get another round of his jelly cake. We were given another chance to meet up and this time we were having a dinner in a hotel somewhere in downtown Seoul. His mother gave him a little help so he could make reservation in such an in-demand hotel and short notice.
I shook my head quickly, looking up at him from the salad that I just finished.
“Worried about your comeback?” he asked, earning a glare from me. We promised not to talk anything about work as much as possible. We wanted to be just like the other couples out there whenever we’re together. “What! I was just asking! You have been out since we met up earlier” I pretended to look at my cellphone when he looked at me straight into my eyes.
A week before our anniversary and I still couldn’t think of anything to give him. My schedule wasn’t permitting me to contact his mother that I already wanted to not meet him for a while. My sisters had been trying to avoid opening a topic about him because of it.
“My Oppa” I whispered, spending the time of waiting for the elevator by hugging. I had my arms wrapped around him possessively, earning a smile from the foreign businessmen that were just going inside the dining area. I could feel his finger creating invisible circle on the bare part at my back.
“Joohyun-ah” he called while we were walking through the deserted lobby. “I’ve got a bad news” he announced, opening the door for me.
I watched him with a pout while he ran to the driver’s seat, bad news always means bad for the two of us. My eyes were on him as he was starting the engine of his car.
“We will be in Japan starting next week” Oh. It was that bad. It’ll be the first time we wouldn’t be together for our anniversary, we always make it sure to leave a few hours at the end of our schedule for our celebration. And as much as I was disappointed, I nodded in understanding. I already expected how he’d be busier when they ventured the Japan market. “And the dinner is already my gift”
“Oh” I slowly tucked my wavy hair behind my ear while looking at the passing cars outside.
We let a short minute of silence informed us about the awkwardness slowly creeping into the air. My eyes were slowly getting misty by the thought of us being separated during our anniversary lingered into my mind. My breath halted in surprise when he put his hand on my chin and tilted it so I could look at him. It was abrupt that I couldn’t hide the tears that were threatening to fall from my eyes.
“Hey…” His voice soft enough to make my heart leaped in contentment.
I caught the first few drops of my tears, forcing a small smile at him and looked right back the window. I heaved a sigh, words were almost impossible for my mind anymore. I had been too caught up thinking about what I should give him.
“Hyun-ah, what’s wrong? I’m sorry, you know there’s nothing I can do about it” His voice was cracking a bit, a sign that he was nervous and it made me smile despite the flowing tears. I felt his hand on my face, caressing my cheek lovingly.
I leaned in, slightly shivering from the warmth it was giving me. I held his hand with both of my hands, squeezing it a bit before planting a quick kiss on his palm. He quietly used his thumb to wipe my tears on the left side of my face before intertwining our fingers tightly.
“I’m sorry, Oppa. I’m just…” Then I deliberated if I should finally tell him what was bugging me for weeks and sighed, I knew I couldn’t hide anything from him. “-I couldn’t think of anything for our anniversary” I whispered, purposely lowering my voice so he couldn’t hear it.
I heard him sigh loudly, he pulled over the Han River’s park. I stared at the beauty of the landscape, missing the dozen times I spent my night walking around, just absorbing the peaceful ambiance it had. I fixed my makeup and baseball hat for a minute before following him outside.
He had his hands buried into his pants’ pocket, eyes admiring the twinkling lights of the river. It was almost midnight and there were only few people spending their night under the cold air. He spread his arms as soon as he saw me walking towards him. I let him squeeze my body inside his arms, slightly feeling his lips brushing against my hair.
“Joohyun-ah, I don’t want you frustrating yourself over such small thing”
“What do you mean? That I shouldn’t make a big deal out of our anniversaries?” I asked, my tone couldn’t help but sound annoyed. He was making it sound like he didn’t care about our special day.
He smiled, carefully straightening my eyebrows that crossed along with his question. “When did I say that? Come on, we would spending a lot of anniversaries in the future and I know we both couldn’t think of anything different each days” I sighed, silently agreeing with his explanation.
But it would be harmless to try for it, right?
“I just…want it to be special, you know” I whispered, my voice cracking already.
He put his hands on my cheek and forced me to look at him. His eyes were sparkling just like how the beautiful lights dancing before us. His smile covering half of his face, he was such a beautiful sight. “Believe me, Seo Joohyun. Just the fact that we are celebrating a special day is enough for me. Just that. I don’t even care if I won’t get something new. Just my Seo Joohyun saying I love you to me is the best gift, remember that, okay?” I felt like his sincerity was tangible, that I wanted to grasp it and keep it mine forever.
I nodded, finally wrapping my arms around his waist. Smiling at the thought of just being with him, I really do love him so much. It was an enjoyable journey with him, the anticipation of every meetings, the sincerity of each touch and the unbelievable amount of emotion we could feel from each other.
Being with Jung Yonghwa was such an amazing reality for me.
“You really couldn’t spend the night with me?” He pulled his head so he could show his childish pout and puppy eyes.
I squinted my eyes, pretending I was thinking hard about it. I had an early schedule with my sisters the next day that I told him I could only spend few hours of midnight with him. “Okay, Oppa. I’m going to call my manager so I could grant your wish. For our special day” I finally announced, showering me with kisses all over my face.
“Stop!” I whined while laughing and trying to find my manager’s number on my phone.
“I missed you!” He whispered huskily, giving him a glare knowing that he meant different with his statement.
I missed him too, by the way.
He had his arm resting on his forehead, covering a partial part of his closed eyes. His mouth was slightly opened, showing how tired he was from the band activities that assumed right after his set of drama filming. I almost giggled in amusement with how his snore was blending with the beautiful sound of the rain.
I was playing with my feet, bending it back and forth while my eyes wouldn’t stop looking at my favorite guy in the world. But I wouldn’t let my father know it because he might love him like a son, I know that he wouldn’t like the news at all. Even when we were doing the show, my parents had been treating him well and warmer than we both expected. Though they’ve only met once, short enough with sincere greeting and small talks. Whenever I came by our house to spend a few days with them, they would show off their ‘in-law’ relationship with him, he never told me he was sending gifts for them randomly.
Then suddenly I remembered a thought that had been bugging me for weeks, I groaned in my mind and lay on my back and studied his room’s white ceiling. We would be celebrating our 600th day in three weeks and I haven’t thought of anything at all. I’ve been making handmade presents every time that I have run out of ideas already. And my sisters couldn’t give me proper suggestions.
“Buy him something he likes” Jessica replied, nonchalantly. She was busy texting her latest date that she wouldn’t use her brain for me.
“He could buy anything with his money, unnie!” I reasoned out, nose fuming with so much air in frustration.
“Treat him out?” Sooyoung suggested with stars in her eyes as if she was imagining herself with a date.
“We’ve done that during our first year and 500th date, remember?”
“There’s nothing wrong with repeating gifts or stuffs like these, Joohyun-ah. You can just make a simple letter and he would love you even more” Tiffany said sincerely, her eyes sympathetic towards me. She patted my head for a moment before walking to her room.
I sighed at the thought of our discussion about it, being the perfectionist that I was, I wanted more and different each celebration. I didn’t like the thought of him getting tired of the same routine.
While carefully hopping out of his bed, I consciously wore his sweatshirt that was on his office chair, shaking my head that it only reached a few inches lower than my buttocks. I picked up our clothes that was scattered on the floor and put it on the side. I ran an eyeful at his messy study table, music sheets scattered all over his keyboard, his musical equipments increasing like the number of my visits and I smiled at the small space at the left corner, just beside the monitor, was a selca I took for the fans.
“Oh” I whispered as an invisible bulb popped into my mind.
I quickly grabbed my bag and got my diary. I knew I made a noise as I dropped on the foot of his bed, I scribbled a quick ‘Call his mother’ on a page where I put my ideas about our special day.
“Joohyun-ah” I heard his sleepy and low voice called, his hands were already wrapping on my waist as I turned my head to look at him. “Why are you awake?” I smiled at how his eyes would always look so puffy whenever he wakes up. He rested his head on my shoulder, giving me a back hug.
“Hmmm” I replied, resting my back on his, feeling his bare chest on mine. I casually flipped the pages of the diary he gave as a New Year present, something he bought in Japan. I let him leave a light kisses over my neck and small part of my exposed shoulder. “I love you, goddess” I heard him reminding me, turning my head to meet with his awaiting lips.
I had my mind flying about my present while kissing him back in slow pace. I groaned in annoyance when I couldn’t concentrate on his lips anymore that I had to pull back. He looked at me blankly and I heaved a large amount of relief sigh when he was too sleepy to make his brain work.
I tried to stand when he tightened his arm around me, “Oppa I’m just going to look at the time” I explained in a ‘There-goes-my-choding-of-a-boyfriend’ tone.
He chuckled and reluctantly let me go. I grabbed his watch that was on his table, “4.24 in the morning” I read, pouting. “Let’s go out?” I offered, checking the rain outside.
“But we’re going out already” He replied mischievously, his toothy smile back again to tease more. “Sure, babe” He added few seconds later when I glared at him as a reply.
“Sleep for some more. I’ll wake you up after I’m done preparing” I informed, sliding my bag over my shoulder and bended down to kiss him. But since he was in the mood to be his usual playful self, he settled his hands on my shoulder to deepen the kiss more and shortly dragged me down on top of him. He roamed his hand on my thigh, earning a soft moan from me. I couldn’t help it when his touch sent me a good amount of electricity enough to leave me breathless and hungry for him.
In the end, we ended up cuddling each other to sleep. Nothing more, we decided to give our virginities to each other during our 500th day celebration, maybe letting the pressure of romantic yacht date and the perfect moment and feeling we had that we ended up showing our most vulnerable and more different sides to each other. There was something deeper in us then, it felt like we could grasp the feelings we had for each other every single time we became one, showing how serious we were in whatever we have.
“Hey, what’s up?” My oppa asked when he came back from the buffet table to get another round of his jelly cake. We were given another chance to meet up and this time we were having a dinner in a hotel somewhere in downtown Seoul. His mother gave him a little help so he could make reservation in such an in-demand hotel and short notice.
I shook my head quickly, looking up at him from the salad that I just finished.
“Worried about your comeback?” he asked, earning a glare from me. We promised not to talk anything about work as much as possible. We wanted to be just like the other couples out there whenever we’re together. “What! I was just asking! You have been out since we met up earlier” I pretended to look at my cellphone when he looked at me straight into my eyes.
A week before our anniversary and I still couldn’t think of anything to give him. My schedule wasn’t permitting me to contact his mother that I already wanted to not meet him for a while. My sisters had been trying to avoid opening a topic about him because of it.
“My Oppa” I whispered, spending the time of waiting for the elevator by hugging. I had my arms wrapped around him possessively, earning a smile from the foreign businessmen that were just going inside the dining area. I could feel his finger creating invisible circle on the bare part at my back.
“Joohyun-ah” he called while we were walking through the deserted lobby. “I’ve got a bad news” he announced, opening the door for me.
I watched him with a pout while he ran to the driver’s seat, bad news always means bad for the two of us. My eyes were on him as he was starting the engine of his car.
“We will be in Japan starting next week” Oh. It was that bad. It’ll be the first time we wouldn’t be together for our anniversary, we always make it sure to leave a few hours at the end of our schedule for our celebration. And as much as I was disappointed, I nodded in understanding. I already expected how he’d be busier when they ventured the Japan market. “And the dinner is already my gift”
“Oh” I slowly tucked my wavy hair behind my ear while looking at the passing cars outside.
We let a short minute of silence informed us about the awkwardness slowly creeping into the air. My eyes were slowly getting misty by the thought of us being separated during our anniversary lingered into my mind. My breath halted in surprise when he put his hand on my chin and tilted it so I could look at him. It was abrupt that I couldn’t hide the tears that were threatening to fall from my eyes.
“Hey…” His voice soft enough to make my heart leaped in contentment.
I caught the first few drops of my tears, forcing a small smile at him and looked right back the window. I heaved a sigh, words were almost impossible for my mind anymore. I had been too caught up thinking about what I should give him.
“Hyun-ah, what’s wrong? I’m sorry, you know there’s nothing I can do about it” His voice was cracking a bit, a sign that he was nervous and it made me smile despite the flowing tears. I felt his hand on my face, caressing my cheek lovingly.
I leaned in, slightly shivering from the warmth it was giving me. I held his hand with both of my hands, squeezing it a bit before planting a quick kiss on his palm. He quietly used his thumb to wipe my tears on the left side of my face before intertwining our fingers tightly.
“I’m sorry, Oppa. I’m just…” Then I deliberated if I should finally tell him what was bugging me for weeks and sighed, I knew I couldn’t hide anything from him. “-I couldn’t think of anything for our anniversary” I whispered, purposely lowering my voice so he couldn’t hear it.
I heard him sigh loudly, he pulled over the Han River’s park. I stared at the beauty of the landscape, missing the dozen times I spent my night walking around, just absorbing the peaceful ambiance it had. I fixed my makeup and baseball hat for a minute before following him outside.
He had his hands buried into his pants’ pocket, eyes admiring the twinkling lights of the river. It was almost midnight and there were only few people spending their night under the cold air. He spread his arms as soon as he saw me walking towards him. I let him squeeze my body inside his arms, slightly feeling his lips brushing against my hair.
“Joohyun-ah, I don’t want you frustrating yourself over such small thing”
“What do you mean? That I shouldn’t make a big deal out of our anniversaries?” I asked, my tone couldn’t help but sound annoyed. He was making it sound like he didn’t care about our special day.
He smiled, carefully straightening my eyebrows that crossed along with his question. “When did I say that? Come on, we would spending a lot of anniversaries in the future and I know we both couldn’t think of anything different each days” I sighed, silently agreeing with his explanation.
But it would be harmless to try for it, right?
“I just…want it to be special, you know” I whispered, my voice cracking already.
He put his hands on my cheek and forced me to look at him. His eyes were sparkling just like how the beautiful lights dancing before us. His smile covering half of his face, he was such a beautiful sight. “Believe me, Seo Joohyun. Just the fact that we are celebrating a special day is enough for me. Just that. I don’t even care if I won’t get something new. Just my Seo Joohyun saying I love you to me is the best gift, remember that, okay?” I felt like his sincerity was tangible, that I wanted to grasp it and keep it mine forever.
I nodded, finally wrapping my arms around his waist. Smiling at the thought of just being with him, I really do love him so much. It was an enjoyable journey with him, the anticipation of every meetings, the sincerity of each touch and the unbelievable amount of emotion we could feel from each other.
Being with Jung Yonghwa was such an amazing reality for me.
“You really couldn’t spend the night with me?” He pulled his head so he could show his childish pout and puppy eyes.
I squinted my eyes, pretending I was thinking hard about it. I had an early schedule with my sisters the next day that I told him I could only spend few hours of midnight with him. “Okay, Oppa. I’m going to call my manager so I could grant your wish. For our special day” I finally announced, showering me with kisses all over my face.
“Stop!” I whined while laughing and trying to find my manager’s number on my phone.
“I missed you!” He whispered huskily, giving him a glare knowing that he meant different with his statement.
I missed him too, by the way.