i'm really glad you're pursuing the music thing because you really are so talented... and i know you know that, and i know you get that all the time. :)
i love everything you wrote here and i think you're headed in the right direction if you want to "find yourself," because you just admitted that maybe you haven't had everything all figured out after all.
requiem for a dream is incredibly depressing. you either love it or you hate it, but i think i fell somewhere in between. the first time i saw it i was so depressed by the end that i had to get out of my house. no movie has even affected me that much. haha.
thank you carolyn ♥ and yes i had heard all this hype over requiem for a dream so i finally watched it and it was definitely better than i expected. i watched it 4 more times and it still hasn't gotten old.
You have no idea how excited I was to see that you had a long entry. I became ever more excited when I read "i don't need a change." Because from what I have known of you, you seemd so perfect and intune with yourself. And now you are coming to part iwth it.
i am far from perfect, so you're on your own with that one. that's our one difference since everything else about the both of us has seemed to be the same.
If you liked requiem for a dream, then get "Waking Life"
Superb movie. And fun to talk about after you watch it.
Change is good. Happiness is not a place you find yourself in that will stay with you as long as you cling to it. Happiness is merely a name for an emotion that feels good to us. This emotion can be found in many instances and can vary from a small amount for a short period of time to a large amount for a long period of time.
The longest i've found myself consistantly happy was about seven months. No lie. Things went great. Then things changed and I was down but I grew as a person because of it. This inability to let people in will fade as you mature just like most of our adolescense. If it doesn't, there's always therapists :p.
i will definitely be getting waking life then. ill let you know how i like it.
ive always liked change and have always accepted it and dealt with it well whether i liked it or not. but for once i don't want it as much as i used to any more and im thinking it's just growing pains or could it be that i don't want change that much because ive never been as content as i have been now. i don't know. all i know is is that i've never been happy for that seven months before and it must have been amazing while it lasted. was it hell when it ended though, that's something to be scared about when you're truly happy. could you say that what you got out of it was worth it all the way
There comes a time when you stop wondering whether or not anything was really worth it or not and just make due with what life hands you. If you're stuck regretting what happened and what you could've done to change it, you're just living in the past which does nothing but bring you down.
The change was devestating, but to regret what happened now would be to say i'm not satisfied with who i am. And i am.
Waking life is a pretty sweet movie. The animation is weird. one second your making a joke about shitty animation. The next it's as real as the person next to you. Very weird. A must see though.
As far as everything else, good for you. Being content has its ups and downs, as does anything else. Optimism is a greatly underestimated tool. But not always neccesary.
I like the "I dont need to change" bit. I myself feel that way, well put.
it's definitely a good feeling when you feel like you finally don't need change in your life. and i understand how you think optimism can be an underestimated tool, but i think its also a very helpful and effective one for people (or atleast me) in bad situations when theres no other hope. all of the waking lifes at blockbuster were out :( so im trying tomorrow.
Ever find waking life?lostcountagainSeptember 1 2006, 17:01:36 UTC
I think we just agreed with each other? Optimism is a tool people dont use enough. Its good that you use it, ask around. I am a pretty optimistic person, I rarely if ever get angry. I doubt you can find someone around here (Except my sister) who has ever seen me angry for more then like 2 seconds. I find a way to laugh at everything. It's a good system.
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i love everything you wrote here and i think you're headed in the right direction if you want to "find yourself," because you just admitted that maybe you haven't had everything all figured out after all.
requiem for a dream is incredibly depressing. you either love it or you hate it, but i think i fell somewhere in between. the first time i saw it i was so depressed by the end that i had to get out of my house. no movie has even affected me that much. haha.
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I became ever more excited when I read "i don't need a change."
Because from what I have known of you, you seemd so perfect and intune with yourself. And now you are coming to part iwth it.
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Superb movie. And fun to talk about after you watch it.
Change is good. Happiness is not a place you find yourself in that will stay with you as long as you cling to it. Happiness is merely a name for an emotion that feels good to us. This emotion can be found in many instances and can vary from a small amount for a short period of time to a large amount for a long period of time.
The longest i've found myself consistantly happy was about seven months. No lie. Things went great. Then things changed and I was down but I grew as a person because of it. This inability to let people in will fade as you mature just like most of our adolescense. If it doesn't, there's always therapists :p.
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ive always liked change and have always accepted it and dealt with it well whether i liked it or not. but for once i don't want it as much as i used to any more and im thinking it's just growing pains or could it be that i don't want change that much because ive never been as content as i have been now. i don't know. all i know is is that i've never been happy for that seven months before and it must have been amazing while it lasted. was it hell when it ended though, that's something to be scared about when you're truly happy. could you say that what you got out of it was worth it all the way
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The change was devestating, but to regret what happened now would be to say i'm not satisfied with who i am. And i am.
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As far as everything else, good for you. Being content has its ups and downs, as does anything else. Optimism is a greatly underestimated tool. But not always neccesary.
I like the "I dont need to change" bit. I myself feel that way, well put.
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all of the waking lifes at blockbuster were out :( so im trying tomorrow.
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