i said things were going to be different ( Read more... )

i pray to God that things slow down after homecoming, and i can just grab a moment to breathe. my weekends seem to be even busier than my weeks. and then its monday again.. im overdue for a break.
Joseph

i've noticed that i only post when something has happened to make me angry. and that's not good.. or fair to the people who read my entries.. so for that, i apologize. and i couldn't be more content, then i am now. :]
Joseph :]

school always comes with new beginnings, but sometimes things just get complicated. things that have been put into motion, that i was so excited about- that i could not wait, to jump into.. all of that is just draining me now. it's all i think about, and it just gets me DOWN.. i'm so unsure... of everthing. and i'm absolutely miserable when i have ( Read more... )

i tear my heart open ( Read more... )

i could not be more angry right now with my life and the way my parents are treating me. but i know that if i want it to get better i have to keep my fucking eyes dry and my mouth closed.. and that is the hardest thing to do right now. how do i get to these points? to the highest high of the tallest mountain, and then slammed to the valley a few ( Read more... )

wow, my life is almost perfect, and for some reason im still not happy. i dont know what im supposed to do. sometimes i think im crazy, but ill talk to someone, who tells me that the rest of the world is just as insane.

ok.summer is finally exactly the way i want it. everythings going great, and im basically very pleased with everything thats happening. in other news, im excited about the hurricane, im just so tired of hearing the same weather forecasts over and over! im also pleased to know that i will be getting my beloved car back pretty soon here.. that is ( Read more... )

ok the 4th of july was pretty cool.. stayed up and watched donnie darko with josh, and it was awesome. the fireworks were pretty good, i actually felt really patriotic there for a while. and collectively, it turned out to be a really fun night. happy 4th everyone--
Joseph

God forgive me- because sometimes i sincerely hate my parents. they can be so retarded, provocative and hypocritical. then they think that having a family gives them dictatorship, and the authority to do and say whatever the fuck they want. because family isnt about being a democracy, and communication! its about being an asshole, and having to ( Read more... )