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WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK.
Mori's grades were inflated, as mine were.
Amanda's grades were also improved.
Travis's went down.
So did the entire house of Gryffindor.
I can't even bring myself to talk about Hermione. Needless to say, she's no longer top of the class... I must be. This is fucking shit. How could I be the top of the class? I don't even deserve it. I work my arse off, but not nearly as hard as Hermione... not nearly.
And the worst part is how my house isn't even supportive of me now being top of the class. I've even gotten GLARES for it... I need Mori. I need her so badly. She'll know what to do, what to say...
How could I have lost so much, by gaining so much? Actually, I didn't even gain anything. It was thrust upon me. Bloody fucking fuck. I don't even want these grades. I DO, BUT I DON'T. NOT THIS WAY. And something within me has cracked. Probably the something that keeps me calm all the time. I can't stand it, my world is breaking in half.
And mum's pregnant.