blah. knowing what you are thinking is over-rated. i'd prefer to live in my own confused psycosis.

sorry i've been vague lately. that's kinda how it is in my head. i can't really figure anything out. after having a nice talk with lorah, i think i will take a vacation. after ruling out a check in at a mental institution for the fear that they wouldn't let me out, i've decided i want to go to the beach. just a weekend. just bymyself. with books ( Read more... )

i have decided that i am taking things slowly. and i will use this time to figure things out. yes yes. that is what i will do.

i don't want to be here anymore. i don't want to do anything anymore. i just want to sleep. sleeping keeps me from stress. sleeping keeps me from thinking. from worrying. but not dreaming. dreaming is the worst. and crying. i don't like crying. but i do it so often lately. i thought i was getting better. but i decided to fuck that up. i do things ( Read more... )

school started. i hope i don't stress myself out with my schedule. i hope things will be fine.

school starts soon. eek.

i guess i'm just going to get back into the groove of life that i had before him. i think i'll be fine.

i wanted to type something. to sort things out in my head, but i just lost the urge. damn. i really need to figure out what is going on in my mind.

things are good. they really are. i think i know what i'm doing. and i'm happy with the decision. completely. i just have one battle left to fight. eek. wish me luck.

my sister is a bitch. i don't appriciate being pawned off to mike's friends. just becuase they need to get laid. and maybe becuase i do. and becuase you don't like my boyfriend. and tell me all the time. bitch. it's not nice ( Read more... )

five days, twelve hours, and twenty-five minutes.
that is when the world will end.

no!

that is when my love is coming up! yay!
i'm so excited. i can hardly do anything else. but i have to. damn finals and shit. stupid school.

oh, my father pissed me off to no end on monday. how old must one be to talk to one's father as an adult?