Locked journal entry. [beyondtherift.]

[why_dowefall]

[Locked to Alfred Pennyworth, Rachel Dawes, Harvey Dent, and Jason Randall, if he's still around.]Being here in Chicago is the longest stretch of time that I've just been Bruce Wayne in the last two and a half years. Bruce Wayne. Not the Batman and not "Bruce Wayne". It's been nice, not having to pretend. People either don't know who I am, or

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[rattle_thecages]

Chicago reminds me of all that is wrong with Gotham, too. Which means it's all the more important we take a stand against this senseless act of violence. We can't sit back in silence or give into their fear tactics. Just because it isn't Gotham doesn't make us any less responsible in terms of helping. We can help and do it honorably.

In part, I understand your missing what was such a big part of you. Being unable to take initiative as an ADA the way I could have back home - I miss that part of me fiercely, as well.

On an intellectual level I'll never be able to agree with what you do.

But I respect the courage it takes. I understand how necessary it is.

You're doing what you believe in your heart to be the right thing.

Surprisingly or no, I won't be the one to try and talk you out of it.

[why_dowefall]

Thank you for that, Rachel. It... can't have been easy, before, watching someone you were so close to choose this kind of life. You and I, I think, share a gift for seeing the bigger picture, the greater good. And of being able to accept that that greater good frequently requires sacrifices.

I respect your inability to accept this on an intellectual level. It's only fair. I can't think of anyone who'd be all right with someone they loved taking on this kind of life.

I thank you for granting me respect in return, and supporting what I want--what I need--to do.

[rattle_thecages]

You never have to thank me for that.

No, it wasn't. Coming to grips with the fact Gotham needed someone like Batman wasn't easy, but it wasn't any easier knowing the boy I grew up with needed him, too. Always will. But this isn't about me.

We do share that in common. It does require sacrifices, it requires risk but if we don't do anything, if we ignore what's been done we risk so much more. What we've tried to achieve, it comes with a price and we're both aware of it.

I'll do my part.

It's always been your choice, Bruce. And I know it isn't a decision you've come to lightly. It weighs heavily. I meant what I said that day we first met. You'll have me as a friend, right to the very end.

[why_dowefall]

Thank you, Rachel. And likewise.

Here's hoping that end is later rather than sooner.

[gothamshope]

I'm going to try to say this rationally and honestly. I don't know if it'll do any good, but it's worth a try.

Chicago does have similarities to Gotham. Similarities I don't quite like, since it needs to be said. If I think about it rationally, I would say that Chicago does need a Batman. It needs to be cleaned up. I would help, if I could. I'd like to. But you and I both know that can't happen. Do what you have to do, Bruce.

I can't promise that Twoface won't have anything to say about this. I can't promise that I -- that he won't do anything, because I don't know. But at least if he does, you'll be able to do something about it.

There, that was mostly rational. I hope.

[why_dowefall]

It was never anything I could tell you before, Harvey, because back home in Gotham I had to play "Bruce Wayne" and he didn't hold those kinds of opinions. But I always believed you were the best, brightest hope for our city. I thought that you could lead us into being the city we needed to be, and that you could do it legally, within the acceptable frameworks.

But I suppose, in a city where people are crucified and left in public parks, the acceptable frameworks aren't really enough. Not yet.

You may not be able to help now. But it's my wish that when the times comes that you can, you doI'm going to hope Twoface has nothing to say about this, and will do nothing later. I'm going to have faith in you, and hope you can keep him at bay. And I'm going to offer my help, in any way I can, in that effort. Anything at all you need, if I can help, I will. I don't know how much water that promise holds considering our relationship up to now has been based on me deceiving you and the rest of our city, but I do mean it, and I offer it

[gothamshope]

There's not much I can say to that except thank you. I wish I could have done what you hoped for. It's what Gotham needed.

I'll try my best. I don't normally like saying this, but since you're one of the only ones who knows -- it's easier, here. To be just me, I mean.

Thank you, again. Hopefully that will be enough, but I have to admit I'm cynical. It's more than enough to know that you'll help if it's needed. For some reason I find myself trusting you. Might be Rachel's fault.

If you want my insight, you're certainly welcome to it. Can't promise how coherent I'll be, but it's something, anyway.

[why_dowefall]

It wasn't you, Harvey. It was Gotham. It can take even the best of us and undermine everything we're trying to do. It's a lesson I never forgot.

I'm glad it's easier for you here. It has been for me, too, though I'm sure that's about to change.

I wouldn't be surprised if it was Rachel's fault. She's a very persuasive woman, and very strong in her convictions. For what it's worth, I trust you too.

[Locked]

[hey_capn_jack]

...I have to say I'm a bit surprised to be getting this. Not that I doubt you'd have formed some suspicions about what I was or wasn't, but there's a bit of a jump between pegging someone as a nonlocal and deciding to confide in them. You've no idea if I might have an agenda that runs counter to yours

[Locked]

[why_dowefall]

Sometimes, Mr. Randall--I'm aware that's not likely to be your true name, but I don't know any other name by which to address you, nor would I presume to demand one--you have to trust in other people, even if they may have an agenda

[Locked]

[hey_capn_jack]

Even the CLF think they're working for the greater good. Even I did.

If you want to be proper and contact Torchwood Command, that'd be Gwen Cooper and Sam Tyler. If you wanted to go straight for the person who might understand this the best, and who might not question your motives if they heard that I sent you over, I'd recommend Suzie Costello. Either way.

[Locked]

[why_dowefall]

Everything is relative, I suppose.

Thank you for the information. I'll think it over and decide whether I want to be official or understood.

Best of luck to you, whatever you're into now.

[apennyworth]

I have absolutely no intention of attempting to talk you out of anything, Sir.

After the recent news, well. I, too, see parallels I wish I did not.

I believe I understand, to some degree. While I am certain there were some difference in our homes, some things shall remain the same. Of that, I have no doubt. There is a heart within a city, and there are those who are the caretakers of that heart.

Whatever the motives were in the beginning, there are also these things that remain.

If you feel this is your purpose, you have my support.

[why_dowefall]

That's a very eloquent way of putting it, Alfred. A city having a heart. I think this city, much like Gotham, has had its heart broken one too many times. It needs some relief, someone to protect that heart so it can heal.

Thank you. I shudder to think what would become of me if I had to do this without you.

[apennyworth]

Yes. I believe the city is blessed, indeed, to have such a well-suited protector in it's midst. I shall do my best to remain yours. Understanding the workings of darkness is a trial, and it is a gift.

I assure you, Sir, that as long as it is within my power, I shall never leave your side.

You are stronger than you think, Master Bruce. While I hope you never have to discover how much so, I know it.

[why_dowefall]

Nor I yours, Alfred, if it's at all within my power.

Thank you. But all the strength I have, I owe to my upbringing, and the man behind it.