This is Written because I am DISGUSTED so Drive on if you don't want to read it...
I actually took the time to write a real post the other day. True, it wasn't public, but most of my posts of any significance aren't. Unfortunately, I was put in a situation where I was faced with almost immediate inquisition about it. At first it was not put to me that I might have any malicious intent in writing it. I said ok, no big deal. Then later I read that the author felt I might have incredibly malicious intent - WTF. This seemed to me somehow wrong. Because of the subject matter and also because of the nature of LiveJournal. I use LJ as a vehicle to talk to my friends and also as a means of self-expression. It is also a means to capture events that go on in my life that I wish to remember as they occur. I was made to feel not only that I should not have revealed them, but that I should not have lived them. That in my opinion is somehow off. I sent an email to the person at the time in good faith. But I really felt there was no reason to justify any of my actions. Perhaps my only mistake was to publish - TO THAT PERSON - that part of my life. Because in doing so, it events it appears that they were unable to share in the positive aspects. I'm not going to say they weren't supportive when I needed support, because they WERE - but they made it perfectly clear that they could not share in my happiness.
I am disgusted by the melodrama that has been reawakened somehow by even the smallest action. I have been away from society it seems and dedicated to work and my home and my recovery for sometime now. This past weekend, I found some re-connection with society and it was good. Now it has been tainted somehow.
So I will say this. And then I need to move on.
To those who cannot accept that decision and actions and life may not always be about them even if they think they must: I have now removed all vestiges of a post that was semi-private anyway. I don't think you really understood what it was about. But it was not there for YOUR edification. It was there for MINE. And there it will stay. However, you need not see it, so you need not worry that it ruin your day any longer. So in doing that I consider THAT conversation to be over. You took offense to a post - It is GONE - DO NOT CONTINUE THIS WITH ME. If you want to discuss the root of the matter - talk to the people who are pertinent, not me. I have nothing to do with that unhappiness. I am perhaps only the catalyst or one of the catalysts that surfaced something that had lain buried. I have no idea. But it's not about me. If you want to talk about ME, come talk to me. If it is about THAT - talk to someone else.
To others who would read something and jump to conclusions - ergo, put me in this situation in the future: take a page from this and consider this - I have a disclaimer in my LJ Information. Take a care to read it. It is there for a reason.