So I start school tomorrow. Im glad Im starting, but Im nervous for Travis and my relationship. We wont be seeing eachother monday or wednesday nights because I have to get up at the butt crack of dawn. On top of that I get so stressed out and push myself too hard that I know Im going to be bitchy. So I overreacted a bit in my last entry. But ( Read more... )

Im not even going to cry about it anymore. I dont even think I can. Im deffinately not a priority in his life so why should I make him one in mine?? Hes number one in my life, yet what am I? Last? My brother thinks its bullshit he cant show up to my party tonight at my dads. I like to think he cares for me but when he does shit like this I ( Read more... )

Once again. I just wish he cared for me as much as I do him. He laughs at everything I say and he doesnt even realize how much he hurts me. He means so much to me yet he acts like a complete asshole. Why cant he just open his eyes and see what hes doing to me ( Read more... )

Travis can really irritate me sometimes! Who cares if I pay for dinner once in awhile. Whats the big deal?! The man in a relationship doesn't always have to be the one paying. UGH. Think its more due to him wanting to be with his friends rather spending time with me. The only reason why I think about calling off work is so I can see him once ( Read more... )

Finally Im 21! Travis got me an Ipod Nano. I would have never thought to ask for one of those! Its awesome. He even got me my favorite flowers. How did I manage to become so lucky? Hes so sweet I love him, making me the happiest Ive ever been. Going to Bobby Qs tonight. Hopefully I dont stay out too late. But we'll see about that. Should ( Read more... )

Im so excited for Vegas. The majority of it is seeing my mom. But we leave in less than two weeks. My birthday is this Tuesday. I honestly dont really want to do much. But Krystal wants to go out. I dont want to get drunk or plastered, maybe have a few drinks then go home. Im thinking about not even going out that following weekend. Who ( Read more... )

Im over it. Im over his smoking. When he decides to quit he will. Nothing else is going to stop him, unfortunately not even me. Its good we spent most of this weekend apart. Or so it seemed. I miss him every second I am away from him. Now that Im over the stupidity that goes through my head I think we will last quite a while.

My last few entries have even confused myself. Its like one day Im so happy with Travis, the next all I can think about is him smoking all the time and his hard shell! I dont get any response from him. Its like he has a cold shoulder toward me or something. I dont know. I guess hes just not as into me as I am him. I wish he would atleast tell ( Read more... )

I havent stayed at home in like a month?? But Im staying here tonight. Ive been thinking about Travis and I. Where is this going? I told myself I wouldnt let his smoking get in the way of us. But it has. I hate it. He gets stoned everyday and it irritates the hell out of me. Before we go to dinner..."The food tastes so much better"...before ( Read more... )

I cant believe Ron is doing this again. Im with someone I can see myself with for a very long time. And he comes into the picture saying he wants me back, he still loves me and all this shit. Im to the point now where I do believe in marriage again. I dont like to admit it to people but Im not afraid of love anymore. Not afraid to be committed ( Read more... )