"I'm not different. I'm not arty like everyone says who doesn't know me, I don't paint, I can't draw, I play no instrument, I can't sing. I'm not in plays, I wanted to say, I don't write poems. I can't dance except tipsy at dances. I'm not athletic, I'm not a goth or a cheerleader, I'm not treasurer or co-captain. I'm not gay and out and proud, I'm ( Read more... )

Last night when you came home you didn't expect my dad and Uncle to be here, you looked scared which is such an unfamiliar expression on your face. And then I cried when you came back home, you asked me why and there is no right answer. I cried until we fell asleep and maybe you don't understand why I wanted to lay next to you but this was our last ( Read more... )

It has been snowing since yesterday. It feels like the world shuts off for a while. Like the heavy blanket of depression when it comes, the snow oppresses the city.

I seem to be making decisions that I don't remember making.

like that time we took lou out in her snow suit that was almost already too small, and you held her arms like she was a puppet. before she could walk, remember ( Read more... )