6 months... or what would have been 6 months.

[wicked_bitter]

So this is my weekend...

Saturday morning I woke up at Erik's apartment. Everything seemed fine, we were just great. He was on his way to hang out with his friend for the afternoon and I was supposed to go to some more graduation parties. My dad ended up being around and came to see his apartment... that was weird. Well I get a phonecall around 6,

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[facingthesun]

I'd say resist the sex until he figures out what he wants. I could go all talk show and guess that he's freaking out because, maybe you were getting a tad too serious and maybe he's thinking that you'll be the only one he'll be with...I bet he doesn't even find that a bad idea, but he's panicking regardless. It's stupid, but I've seen a lot of boys do it. It's like a mini midlife crisis after high school.

You shouldn't let him mess with your feelings just because you love him. He shouldn't use you for sex either. And if he's lonely, God, find him something else to cuddle with.

I should probably stop, because everytime I offer advise, I'm usually so out of line or talking about something that I know nothing about.

[wicked_bitter]

No it's okay... I'm glad you at least said something to me. I dunno, my mom has been alright, and Meghan, my friend, was okay. But my friend April was just mean...

I am here right now. waiting for him to get home from work. We're going to talk through everything. I'm not even sure if I should be with him anymore. I feel lost and hurt, and he wants to see that girl again. Just as friends... but whose to say he'll resist temptation. Unless he 99% loves me... I'm terrified.

And I know he loves me, he is freaking out and we've been through so much stree lately. I could of been a better girlfriend. I could of been a better friend period. Hopefully everything will work out the way it should go.

Thanks Jen... that had to be an incredibly boring post to read. :)