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[wicked_wiccan]

I am slowly learning more about myself as i am now. I start to see what makes me tick. Some good, others bad but i am going to have to acept them all. I felt sexually arroused for the first time the other day. Well i have been before but not like this. Instead of pictures or porn on the internet it was caused by another living person. One that i

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[ainhoa_si]

It sounds to me like either she's ready or she's not sure. You should talk to her about it. And you could apologize if you really wanted to. What for? For moving really fast, that's what. Most likely, she wants to to a certain degree. You should really be more open with her--and no, I'm not saying your hiding anything. I'm just saying that if you let her know your inner-most thoughts, if you trust her completely with personal feelings and new emotions knowing that she could destroy everything you are in an instant..but doesn't, then that would be a more open and better relationship.

[wicked_wiccan]

maybe i cant relay my thoughts clear enough here. Regardless what i let on or what people get the idea of here i am very open with tiff. She knows more about me than i do myself. And lol. i actually feel kind of stupid about this whole post. It is actually funny in a way. being the open caring person that i guess most dont see, i did talk to her about it. And just to be clear this wasnt a big step. 6 months to only get to the point that we just experienced is actually slow by most people's standards. But being the way i am i wont just come out and say what it was that happened. most dont care to know and i dont think they need to know anyway. I found out it wasnt too far. it wasnt too fast. And i can control myself. The carnal feelings are still there. They will always be there. But as for now we are content. The whole post was something in me that i want rid of. I am a worrier. I look at the worst case scenerio on most everything. Even if something good happens. i can somehow twist it and turn it into something bad then i fixate

[ainhoa_si]

No problem on the writing advice. I'll try to catch you on AIM sometime; if I don't, you could e-mail me at EtoileAUetoile@yahoo.com.