the pain...
it burns thro my veins like liquid fire...
you no longer care about my simplest desire..
the date on my carton has expired..
as i lay on the floor counting back the hours...
NO longer chained down by your loves fire.
Already turned to dust blowing away forever ...

I had the world in my hands and i let it slip right through ( Read more... )

my life as i know it is over now. All of the last post regarding i know tiffa would never leave me. disregard it. I commited the worst of sins. i made her unhappy. be it directly or indirectly i still caused it. I want to fix it all. I knew i would be with her for the rest of my life. I imagined marrying her, having children and growing old ( Read more... )

all the posts are beginning to sound the same. I moved everything i owned into a vacant room last night. I dunno why i did it. I dont expect to live where i am much longer. Maybe i did it to be alone. Maybe i did it to be away from the noise that blasts out of the speakers on joshes computer. It could be that i was just boured and needed something ( Read more... )

Well i havent posted in a while. I dont really feel like ever finishing my last post so im jsut gonna not do it. Alot of things have been happening and not alot at the same time ( Read more... )

What kind of friend are you to me. Just random thoughts of my friends that i thought about one day. This isnt really gonna be a bio on how i think you tick and stuff. More of a... sample. and maybe some advice i would give to you. I may not list all my friends here because there are alot of them and i may leave some out. or they never come here so ( Read more... )

i have been thinking alot again lately. thinking alot about the people i know, love, hate, live with, call my family, hope to become family and everyone. I think about how i see them. how i figured out what makes them tick. what they think about. Then i think about if i think all these things then obviously they have some thoughts about me. at ( Read more... )

I went to see tiffa last night. The first time in ones weeks time. I had to go to her anty's. I didnt want to go because her anty is two faced... you know what i mean if you read an earlier post. Along with tiff's oldest brother. THe night before they were discussing about how i am lying abut being a virgin. HEr anty said i told her i was once but ( Read more... )

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I moved in with josh and people. they are all nice to me but i feel like i dont belong. that i am in the way. I compensate for that by trying to do as much housework as i can. It makes me feel better for a little bit. I missed registering for school and i dunno how that will affect me going back. I need to look for a job real soon so i feel alittle ( Read more... )