I don't know anymore

[wicked_wild]

I don't know whats wrong with me anymore... I havent gone to 5 classes in 2 days. I had 2 tests that I just didnt show up for. Whenever I'm surrounded by people I still feel like I'm the only one there... I'm the first to leave, and sometimes I don't think that anyone notices that I'm even gone... It takes so much out of me to simply smile. I

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[cindyem]

Awww hun, I know you said not to comment, but you sound like the way I did a few months ago. I was just quiet and I did exactly that. If you need anyone to talk to, my email address is em.c@neu.edu and I'll give you my phone number if you ever feel like talking. I'm here. Keep your head up.

Valentine's Day is just Hallmark's way of making money. You're a beautiful girl and don't need to be with anyone to make you feel that way. You're an intelligent, beautiful independent woman. Never forget that. In order for you to love others and have others love you, you need to learn to love yourself.

[wicked_wild]

Thank you Cindy... You are one of the sweetest people I know. I can always count on you to lift me up a little. It's so wierd bc i've never even met you, but i prolly get more support from you than most of my ignorant ass friends... ahhh... I know that V day isnt a big deal... but its even worse when it woulda been me and my x's 2 year... he calls me every day to tell me that he hates me and i'm a whore and a slut and a bitch and all that... then calls later to tell me he loves me... then back again to tell me i'm worthless.... He's driving me to the freakin edge... ahhhhh .. but THANK YOU CINDY

<3 u

kristi

[cindyem]

You're welcome babe, but it sounds like you're going through EVERYTHING I used to go to. I changed my number after being tired of hearing from my ex. Every time he told me I was beautiful and that he loves me, I would have SOOOO Much hope that he'd love me and be with me again. Then he calls me a whore and I break down and fall apart. You need to find the strength to get up and leave. Change your number, cut all forms of contact with him, and your life would be better.

Valentine's Day is a painful reminder, but in the end, you'll be stronger knowing you did well and made it.

You have more self worth than that than to let some asshole get to you and have your emotions wrapped around his finger. That's what he wants, he wants to still put some effect on you, good and bad. He wants to play you like a string puppet, don't let it happen. Hold your head up high and walk away.