your stream of consciousness is incredible! So many things to comment on, not sure if I'd do it justice, so I'll pick the ones that stood out the most to me
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I KNOW RIGHT? Like...i just recomended that one of my best friends here read the Black Jewel Trilogy. AND I LOVE THOSE BOOKS. But they are a lot of dark ideas in it and the society is kinda twisted, and so like fell over myself trying to validate things RIGHT AFTER I HANDED HER THE BOOK. and made sure to say about 3 different times, "if it offends you, stop reading it," as though she wouldn't have figured that out on her own :P She hasn't even opened the cover and I've already probably turned her off to it. I HOPE, like you're IT guy, that she likes it inspite of me. D
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OH LIFE! YOU ARE SUCH A SHOATE BAG! STICK IT UP YOUR PIMHOLE, FUSKERS!!!! ahdasjlhflasjdahlgjsdalsdjhgljasda
I was reading a Murakami Haruki story a few days ago about a writer and he was saying he could never tell anyone about his stories or they'd disappear. It's totaly how I feel--i havent written in a while, and the thought of actually writing makes me so exhausted. I think that's mainly it--exhaaauustion. D:
I dunno I just miss you. Let's flop about together *loveson*
I MISS YOU TOO *flops about with you* oh writing. OH EXHAUSTION. I just saw this on yahoo news... it is so very me right now D: I need a job that starts later, like 10 or something. But then I'd probably just go to bed at 4 instead of 2. LIFE. LET'S LIVE IT. BY SLEEPING MORE. :D
hdohlfjafflashdj I KNOW RITE?! God, I go to sleep at 10 sometimes. I feel like such a loser. I keep thinking--oh, with enough coffee, I can survive on less sleep! And then I spend my entire Saturday sleeping and feel guilty ahdlasjhlj D:
ME TOO OMG. For some reason I think enough coffee will fix anything, but really it just makes me have to run to the bathroom every 3 minutes D: It also makes me a little twitchy. NOT COOL. I don't get to sleep through saturday - japanese and piano lessons, but I sometimes sleep through sunday which is the day I'm always convinced I will use to Get Things Done. Needless to say, not much ever Gets Done around here D:
You are full of love and splendor and all that's wonderful. Your internal dialogs sound extremely like mine in a sorts of ways, and yesss you can get through it. As the excitement plateaus and the normality sets in.. I think it's normal for you to feel this way. But it's good to have some alone time with your inner dialog. Call it therapeutic, if you will ;)
Bottom line, you will triumph and preserver --- with creme cookies and sprinkles. Missing you like woah and "Let's eating" when we meet!
!~!~!SPRINKLES!~!~! :D It was actually really therapeutic to write that. So many thoughts just floating around in my head = me drowning in them. I guess LJ is like my version of Dumbledore's pensieve, lol. For the most part life is actually quite happy and shiney here. I still love where I'm living and the people and it's actually taken a turn towards warmer weather for a couple days now, so yay! happy me! I just get so moody sometimes. I blame lack of sleep T_______T I definately need to get my self in bed earlier.
How are your teeth exams going? What's the most bizarre thing you've had to do so far??? WILL YOU BE MY DENTIST? ♥!
HECK YES I WOULD BE YOUR DENTIST <33 No need to even ask whoohooooo
Most bizarre thing I've even done so far would be thinking I'm so smart by taking some of the monomers (the solution you need to make resin -- that filling you put in mouth) home by putting it is a plastic container ---> only to find out later that it melts plastic lolol.
OH NO!!! Smelly melted plastic D: Did it eat through any of your textbooks? XD DID YOU TAKE PICTURES??? XD sounds way more exciting than my average day. WOOHOO! I HAVE A FUTURE LILY-SAMA-DENTIST :D:D:D:D:D *dances with you*
THE DISCLAIMER THING IS A REFLEX FOR ME. it's so sad. Like, I do it with everything. And not even effectively. like, i probably would warn people about the BJT, but then recomｍend SAW and tell them there are some drugs in it, but forget to mention that it'll scare them shitless. I don't understand by brainz. If it is in fact brainz in my head and not rice pudding.
Oh makeup. It is a mountain that I will some day climb. A foe that I will some day vanquish. An army I will some day conquer. But that day is not today XD
no doubt XD maybe because SAW is so much more of a main stream thing? I dunno I haven't noticed a difference in my disclaimers, but then I tend to ignore certain details while focusing intently on unimportant details *winnar!*
ahh the stars. I used to wonder that too, and tried writing &stars; on a lot of things which really didn't work, lol. In reality, they're part of the Japanese font set, so all you have to do is install the Japanese option and the language toolbar off your windows CD and type in "hoshi" which means star, and it'll give you the option of either white or black :D Good times. Since that's a pain in the ass if you're not planning on using the Japanese function, copying and pasting someone elses stars is always an option XD
Wow. To say you have alot of things on your plate would be an understatement, honey. Please call me whenever you feel have free time... it doesn't matter what time it is in L.A. I just feel it would be difficult to answer each one of your points eloquently in LJ if I tried. Just know that I love you and most things have a way of working out in the end.
lol that was kinda mental vomit up there. Basically introspective venting cuz I like to pester everyone in the world with my confused inner workings apparently. Seriously though, I'm actually really happy right now :D so it's all good! recently I haven't been able to keep myself up late enough to call people, damn need for sleep, but I will try to start again in the near future :D
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I was reading a Murakami Haruki story a few days ago about a writer and he was saying he could never tell anyone about his stories or they'd disappear. It's totaly how I feel--i havent written in a while, and the thought of actually writing makes me so exhausted. I think that's mainly it--exhaaauustion. D:
I dunno I just miss you. Let's flop about together *loveson*
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Bottom line, you will triumph and preserver --- with creme cookies and sprinkles. Missing you like woah and "Let's eating" when we meet!
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How are your teeth exams going? What's the most bizarre thing you've had to do so far??? WILL YOU BE MY DENTIST? ♥!
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Most bizarre thing I've even done so far would be thinking I'm so smart by taking some of the monomers (the solution you need to make resin -- that filling you put in mouth) home by putting it is a plastic container ---> only to find out later that it melts plastic lolol.
It didn't smell nice, let me tell you that.
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Oh makeup. It is a mountain that I will some day climb. A foe that I will some day vanquish. An army I will some day conquer. But that day is not today XD
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no doubt XD maybe because SAW is so much more of a main stream thing? I dunno I haven't noticed a difference in my disclaimers, but then I tend to ignore certain details while focusing intently on unimportant details *winnar!*
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ahh the stars. I used to wonder that too, and tried writing &stars; on a lot of things which really didn't work, lol. In reality, they're part of the Japanese font set, so all you have to do is install the Japanese option and the language toolbar off your windows CD and type in "hoshi" which means star, and it'll give you the option of either white or black :D Good times. Since that's a pain in the ass if you're not planning on using the Japanese function, copying and pasting someone elses stars is always an option XD
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