Must be happy...must be happy. Oh, wait, I am. A lot of people are mistaking my quietness as me not being happy. I am, I'm just dealing with a few of my insecurities right now. Mucho hugs to those of you who have been around to listen to me complain. (Patrick, I've missed you so much and I love you.) Just give me time ( Read more... )

So I'm sitting here and I'm thinking about friends. And I've decided I'm a not so good one, if I was I would (a) have a lot more and (b) be able to hold them longer. I've also decided that I'm not really a fun person to be around. What am I supposed to do about it? I'm the person that sits in the corner and watches everyone else doing ( Read more... )

Okay...so let's review ( Read more... )

Nobody knows it
but you've got a secret smile
and you use it only for me

And yet again I prove my inability to hold a friend.

I'm sorry.

Get over it mother bitches ( Read more... )

I'm mucho tired you guys. Classes are bugging me out. Grrr... I've got tons of stuff to do, but at the same time I really don't. I'm bubbling over with all these things I WANT to do, but I haven't gotten around to anything mainly because I don't have the money too and I'm surely not assertive enough to do so either. (Did that sentence make sense? ( Read more... )

I hate all.

I really hate it when everyone else seems ultra happy and yay and I feel just ung. Josh came over today...that was really great. I felt really nice. But then I got online and read some journals and now I feel like complete shit. I fucking do this to myself and it's stupid. I feel unwanted and outcast-like.

Whatever.

I'm bored. MAJOR BOREDOM! I start at Outback tomorrow...nervousness. I'm actually kind of sad about leaving longhorn...it's comfortable and like home there. Anyone know what I mean ( Read more... )