The Beacon; My Siren - Chap 36 (2/2)

May 08, 2012 19:17


Title: The Beacon; My Siren
Author: wild_terrain (ie. fi_chan)
Banner (Made beautifully by love_cassiopeia):

Read more... )

jaeho, beacon;siren

Leave a comment

Comments 61

smexplicit May 8 2012, 09:21:11 UTC
another one! :D
--
holy, 1st on both parts. I'll comment later. T_T

Reply

wild_terrain May 8 2012, 09:37:32 UTC
hahaha you serial cherry-popper, you! XD

Totally my bad for forgetting to disable comments in part 1. >

Reply

smexplicit May 8 2012, 21:22:36 UTC
What an emotional chapter. :(( so intense my heart is aching so much.

I felt bad when Yunho called Jaejoong a hermit. The way he said.. he sounded so unfeeling, cold and very distant. Not the same Yunho who helped Jajoong realize his self-worth. But I also feel for Yunho. He's trying so hard but what Jaejoong did betrayed his trust. He must have felt that his effort meant nothig to JJ.

I can relate to Jaejoong's character as I have very very little amount of friends and don't really go out as much. Just like Jae, as much as I want to change, sometimes I feel like being alone is the safest. I rarely talk to anyone excepting a few people in the family. and it gets so difficult sometimes. :( Yunho's character remind me of some friends who keep reaching out to me, but instead of trying to connect with them, I tend to push them away... without really intending to? So they just give up on me eventually.It's confusing and I feel like a terrible person.

I can't wait for the next chapter! Hope it gets better for our YunJae soon.

Reply

wild_terrain May 11 2012, 07:31:41 UTC
T__T Yeh Yun was very cold when he called Jae that awful term. Bad moment is bad... ><

That is true too, Yun was cruel but he didn't snap out of nowhere. *sigh*

Awww, you're absolutely not a terrible person. I definitely have shades of that with myself too. It can be confidence levels or trust issues or anxiety but whatever it is (sometimes all three), it's like the body just retreats into its safety blanket mode and sometimes the person doesn't even realise it. That's not our fault though, we just need to (during good days) try and be more social or put down our walls sometimes so bad habits don't occur that become harder to break. T_T

Ah, I hope so too. My big fics always need happy endings for myself but how to get there..... =P

Thank you for reading~ <3

Reply


yunho_ism May 8 2012, 09:26:02 UTC
SPOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT

Reply

yunho_ism May 9 2012, 15:15:39 UTC

... )

Reply

wild_terrain May 11 2012, 07:36:23 UTC
hahahahah love your macro! XD

BECAUSE LIFE SUCKS AND EVEN THOUGH YUNJAE ARE MEANT FOR EACH OTHER THEY ARE ALSO BAD FOR EACH OTHER SOMETIMES. XD

We're already at the last arc? I started writing this in 2009, it's about damn time I reached the last arc! heheh. It never seems to end, I swear, like running on a treadmill. ^^;;

Aww thanks so much! <3

Reply


fallen_reya May 8 2012, 09:52:19 UTC
When you’re left alone, you think too much and there’s no ‘stop’ button. And since you don’t share your thoughts, there’s no one to tell you differently.
<<<---- this, I just had to stop and mention this because by freaking fuck it is so real, I sometimes wish my mind would shut down for one freaking moment, and stop over-analyze every damn thing.

I'll be back after reading the second part

Reply

fallen_reya May 8 2012, 13:21:26 UTC
Oh god, how you are playing with our heads.... this whirl of emotions made me dizzy and though I love you for updating, I hate you so much for hitting so close to home with the description of what depression is...

urg... then again, I guess I might still love you more for updating

Reply

wild_terrain May 11 2012, 07:46:45 UTC
Awww *hug*. Yep Depression is pretty damn common. If it's not you then it's a friend or family member. It's everywhere. The mind can be very cruel, can't it? It's quite a cruel experience when you can't even find motivation to get out of bed T_T. I'm thankful my country is very vocal about it... Korea on the other hand... eek.

Thank you for loving me still in the end. XD

Thanks for reading~ <3

Reply

wild_terrain May 11 2012, 07:37:23 UTC
Omg pleeeeease can someone invent some thinking technique that acts as a stop button that works straight away instead of us having to practice thought blocking over and over again for years!!!! XD

*hug*

Reply


yunho1205 May 8 2012, 10:11:11 UTC
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! SPOT AGAIN!!!!

Reply

rainycakes May 8 2012, 20:25:13 UTC
OMFG WTF JUST FUCKING HAPPENED?? IS THIS REAL? WAS THIS THE REAL CHAPTER 36 PART TWO/B??! WHERE IS THE REAL ONE? *LIFTS UP KEYBOARD AND LOOKS BEHIND MONITOR* WHERE THE FUCK IS IT?! GDIIIIII! *PULLS HAIR*

WHAT ARE YOU DOING, JAEJOONG?! JUST WTF ARE YOU DOING?! AND YUNHO! DON'T GET ME STARTED ON HIM RIGHT NOW! HE WAS FINE, EVEN FREAKING OUT AND GETTING UPSET WITH JAE NEAR THE END THERE...UNTIL HE FUCKING CALLED JAE A HERMIT. MOTHER FREAKIN FRICK! HOW DARE HE! JUST HOW DARE HE?! KFJLSERU82POQW328L3! OMG I'M SO FRUSTRATED AND PISSED AND UPSET AND SAD AND OMG IDEK! GDI JAE, YOU'RE TOO BEAUTIFUL! YOU ARE SO NOT AN UGLY, CRAZY HERMIT! YOU ARE PERFECT! But maybe you shouldn't have flushed Yunho's meds. :/

AND OMG YUNHO...WTFF? ARE YOU INSANE?? OH WAIT, I GUESS YOU KINDA ARE! OMG I'M SO HORRIBLE, BUT HE HURT MY ULTIMATE, PERFECT BIAS! IT'S WARRANTED, DAMN IT!

*stomps off to seethe in the corner* I did warn you my comment might not be as nice on this part. *frowns insanely deeply*

Reply

wild_terrain May 11 2012, 07:43:49 UTC
Capslock..... *gulps* Uh-oh.

Ahh I knowwww, Yun was really cruel there. I don't think he's ever been such a dick to Jae even in past moment when he's been a bit riled up. Unless there is someone hiding behind him with their arm up his bum controlling his mouth lol. But it was said... and it's too late to take back. Ackk.

OI, NOT ALL HERMITS ARE UGLY AND CRAZY! THE HERMIT SOCIETY (WHO NEVER MEET BECAUSE THEY CAN'T LEAVE THEIR SPOT) IS NOT HAPPY! lolllll

hahaha i love youuuu. Your capslock rage having that small interlude of 'but you were a naughty boy, jae...' moment. Brilliant XD. But yeh... Jae was pretty dumb with that. He was hesitating and if onllly he had stayed indecisive for like 5 more mins. He needs to be more like me! haha

Oh dear, I know. It seems there is a rule that my fics have to be messy. =P

Thanks for reading~ <3

Reply


trieze0713 May 8 2012, 10:21:41 UTC
This heartbreak that I have after reading both chapter TT___TT
They haven't gotten their closures on their personal problems... I wish Jae could open up more to Yunho and vice versa... or, I just don't know how to put it into words. But I'm heartbroken now...
Thanks for updating!

Reply

wild_terrain May 11 2012, 07:50:55 UTC
Awww, I know... T_T

No, they really don't completely. They are both so riled up and that state of mind can be hard to work with. It was a miracle Jae even told Yun anything about his past but I'm afraid Yun wouldn't be able to believe the theories Jae gives him even if he did keep opening up. ><

I'm sorry for the hearbreakkk. We must work to fix it later~

Thanks for reading! <3

Reply


Leave a comment

Up