Living my life's not hard enough, they take everything away

[wildanni7]

It's been awhile since I posted anything of substance here. I really haven't a good reason. Except that it's hard even for myself to believe some of the crazy stuff thats happened, not in a way thats actually meaningful, somethings are still either too hard or too humiliating to discuss. I've already made a few attempts and just ended up

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[mandee_jayne]

I love you, Danielle. I have faith in you, and I know you can get through this. You know I'm here for you if you need me.
♥ Mandy

[wildanni7]

Love you too Mandy. Thank you, for your faith and for being there for me. I'm very grateful we have surpassed cousins and consider you my friend. And the same goes for you, if you need me for anything don't be afraid to find me. I'm here for you too.

*hugs you tight* How is everything going? Your posts were sounding more and more positive. I hope you are feeling as better as you sound in your posts. Just remember theres no time limit on how long it takes you to get past this. You don't *have* to be okay already. Also, I'm glad Madeline has come around and is there for you now! I know you were missing her.

Sheeesh I babble! Shutting up now swear. Love you, hun. Take care of yourself!

[mandee_jayne]

You're very welcome dear, and I'm really glad for that as well. I know you're here for me, and I appreciate that.

Everything is going great! Oddly enough, Matt and Allison are an official couple on Facebook now, and it doesn't bother me at all. I'm having a lot of fun with life right now and am feeling really good. And yeah, Madeline and I are great right now too.

Must run in the family! I do nothing but babble. You take care of yourself darling, let me know if I can do anything for you. *hugs*

[randomtology]

Sweetie...I had no idea *hugs you tight* I feel bad that I wasn't there to help you out at all. But I know you will make that six month goal of yours. You're a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for &hearts

[randomtology]

...ALSO THIS IS YUFF SINCE I REALIZE MY JOURNAL NAME IS DIFFERENT.

*fails*

[wildanni7]

*hugs you tight back* Sorry it took so long to reply to this very sweet and amazing reply *grumbles at snow messing up the satellite* Heeee and of course I knew it was you! A Yuff by any other name is still a Yuff! And is still very awesome!

Thank you for your kind words. You don't need to feel bad at all. I kind of ducked out of life when things started going bad and I felt...weird coming back and going "So...I had a heart attack and stuff." But you guys have always been an amazing source of strength and friendship to me so I don't know what the heck I was thinking :/ Thank you for believing in me, Yuff. It means so much more than I could say. *makes determined face* I can do this.

I have missed you! How are you? How has your life been? I have kept up as much as one can via the muns! I hope everything is going well and that you are happy and healthy. And I hope to talk to you soon.

[attaining]

*clings* I'm sorry, Iz. I know if you stick with it and keep trying, you'll be alright. I'm so glad Ev went up to see you. I wish I could've done something to help you out. &hearts I'm wishing you the best, Iz, and I know you're stronger than this. YOU'VE HAD FOUR KIDS, A HEART ATTACK IS NOTHING?? <333 I'll be around when ever you feel up to saying anything at all. *hugs*

[wildanni7]

*clings back* Sorry it took so long to reply to this very sweet and amazing reply *grumbles at snow messing up the satellite* Thank you, my KattyKat. Especially for thinking I will be alright and that I am strong, sometime I'm not so sure but I"m trying like hell to get healthier(and happier). I'm very glad Ev came up too she's really amazing (as much she stubbornly wont admit it)

Thank you for you best wishes and the offer of an ear. I'm hoping at some point I will be grown up enough to admit my mistakes (there I go being cryptic again ;p) But I really do adore you to pieces for the offer!

*hugs you tight* How are you? Hows the quest for college going? I hope you are well, happy and healthy (IE YOU NEED TO TAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF TO DE~STRESS Katty. You need to trust me on this. PLEASE. My cardiologist explained the I was in a constant state of fight or flight and that the body prepares itself to be wounded in such case by getting the blood ready to clot. Good if you're meeting up with a tiger or something, but not so

[chaos_goddess]

it is NOT amazing to do what you'd do for someone that you love, so there.

oh, and i am NOT stubborn. ;)

[bittersweet_art]

Oh Izzy!

I don't even know what to say after that. Really. Just... I know you'll get through this, you're a strong and amazing person and you deserve nothing but the best. If you ever need to talk, please don't hesitate. I don't know anything about relationships or heart attacks but I do know a great deal about depression. Plus, I love you.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

[wildanni7]

Awww Therese, now *I* don't know what to say. Thank you. For believing that I can get through all this and well believing such nice things about me. And for offering an ear. You're amazing and sweet and I don't know how I found such cool friends here online but boy do I have some. *hugs you tight* Love you too, sweetie.

How about you? Have you heard anything about the dizziness? Do you know where your blood pressure is at? (I know, I'm awful, giving everyone heart health advice. I just know the docs are always asking if I'm dizzy so...) I hope you know something soon!! I want My T to be fit as a fiddle!!