my manifesto

[wildbutterfly13]

so, i am feeling...feelings.....a lot of them. the drugs usually numb me to them and so when they crop up again i get surprised and fall into a depression. maybe my mental illness is worse than i thought. i guess i have never been to a real shrink...maybe i just need more drugs, or less drugs. maybe the numbness makes the depression worse

Comments

[unluckymonkey]

poor dear. yes Dave is right about the 20's they are hell. the insecurity the not knowing where you are going. I'm not saying that magically everything will be well when you hit your 30's if you don't try different avenues now. that's the point of your 20's methinks. I was married, divorced, lived all over chicago, out to LA and back and had probably a dozen jobs before anything started to gel. It's fine and normal to have these feelings, hun. I know you said what you make a year but how much do you make/hour? if it's not terribly far from minimum wage then you should try other jobs to see what fits and get on Dave's insurance. Try beebeesitting at your house. Failure is not an option it's a fact. You have to flop a few times to find your way. it makes for better stories in the end anyway. If I can help in any way or you ever wanna vent about it or anything else I'm always here dear. Stop by or call anytime.
PS I had a blast with you two last night and I'm terribly proud of how quickly you took to sewing!