i dont wanna go to work today. im terribly upset about it, ruins my friday night completely. i work from 6 to 9:45. after school im going to cash my bullshit check of $55.81 and opening a check account, then im gonna go home and change for work then im going to the mall to buy some underwear which i am in desperate need of then im gonna get some ( Read more... )

im not sure how im feeling today. mixed emotions, i was happy before but now im sorta just indifferent. theres just no way for me to control my emotions, its so hard. i dont get it, why i feel one way one minute and i act a totally different way another minute, i hate it. my baby made me a CD, its really good, thrice and cursive and incubus and ( Read more... )

attention ksenia and rachel:

renting a room at the hilton is like $400 for the night. i looked into the one in short hills but there are other ones in new jersey too, i didnt know if you guys wanted to go to new york or if you wanted to stay in jersey. let me know what you think.
bye.

i just wrote a really fucked up journal entry but i made it private cause its nothing other people should read. i cant believe how fucking pissed off i am, i am so full of rage and i keep taking it out on the wrong people. i need to just punch the shit out of someone and i know who. i saw dirty dancing havana nights and twisted this weekend. good ( Read more... )

it really makes me sad how much people fucking suck. some people are just so fucked up, so mean and selfish, its really quite gay. but whatever, they can kiss my ass because they dont deserve to be in our lives anyway. so tonight is girls night out, going to see dirty dancing havana nights, mucho excited. my job interview is after school, i get my ( Read more... )

i apologize for my last journal entry. due to the shot, my hormones are out of control and i am having extreme mood swings, lol. anyway, i got a lot accomplished yesterday afternoon. i made a few phone calls and established 3 appointments for the next 2 weeks. tomorrow i have a job interview at Daffys at 3:30, next wednesday i have a college ( Read more... )

i couldnt go to school today. i didnt fall asleep until around 3 am because of all the things on my mind. i just sat in bed, looking around my dark room and cried for hours over what has become of my life. im so scared, i seriously need help. i miss the way it used to be, i miss my old life. i now realize how much regret i feel and you should never ( Read more... )

it doesnt make sense to leave your home just to find a new one. It doesnt make sense to leave your life just to find a new one. It doesnt make sense to give up the friends you love just to find new ones.

i thought it was approiate for the whole college/job crap we are all going through right now. yea ok, im gay, and done.
bye.

damn the snow, damn it to hell. of course because its tuesday and i have to take my car home for my mom it snows so they cancel lunch and i have to go through all the crap involved in getting to leave. bastards. and robbie is suppose to come over today after school and i dont want him walking in the snow, i dont want him taking the bus then walking ( Read more... )

life is pretty gay right now, im serving no purpose at all. i have no car for 2 months, until the next report card. but i dont know, i guess i need to fucking grow up. i made a to-do list and a goals list that i am determined to get done ( Read more... )