dispatches from the sun-tan kid

[wildean]

I could write little vignettes about each day at work so far. It's my way of processing, and there is so much to absorb

Comments

[bubbajam]

change so quick? like a month ago you were thrilled to be in brain injury, that seemed like that was just your thing! it's that depressing?

[wildean]

oh, I'm not really going to quit or anything-- I do still love brains very much, but as a method of preservation when I'm stressed, I go to the worst-case scenario. School is just much more difficult now than last year (which makes sense) and I've been incredibly stressed, and you know how when you're stressed, perspective is lost and things seem 1,000x worse than they actually are. Sometimes, and I knew this would be a factor, I do get reminded of my dad, and that sucks, but it's also why I think I should be there. The normal new job stresses are just being accentuated a bit. It's dorky, but just the fact that I work in Portland now is kind of a big deal to me, with parking and navigating and sketchy people about, haha.

[wildean]

what makes it hard is knowing that everybody has changed, that nobody there is how they once were -- people who have families, who've fought wars, received countless college degrees, and all these accomplishments. Very sobering.

I do have supervision, every other week...so that's definitely a plus. I can see now why they set that up.