... I knew he wanted you to get more serious about tennis but not to that extent.
I'm not sure how much it would help, but would you like me to talk to him, Kintarou? I know most of the damage is done by now, but I could try making him realise that the way you are is what makes you good, if he takes away who you are and your passion, you might win a few games, but soon you'll have no drive to move any further and will definitelly shorten your career.
[ooc: ouch... Kura feels pretty bad for winning now]
...Do what you want. Don't expect 'im ta do much listenin' to ya though. He ain't listenin' to his own wife and family, so I dunno if anything anybody else says is gonna convince him anymore. ...But I'm tired of fightin' with 'im over things, Kura. Nothin' I ever do makes him happy. So maybe...if I do what he wants, he'll finally be happy? Maybe he'll even say he's proud of me?
[OOC: He shouldn't be. Kin-chan doesn't feel any regrets over the outcome of the match. He was content with just playing Kura. His father just happens to be a self-important ass and thinks Kin-chan wasn't trying hard enough. >>;]
I will. If he doesn't listen to me first, I'll keep talking until he does, about this and about how a father shouldn't impose his wants on his children. You don't need to fight, I'll fight for you with all I have. But you can't make him happy, Kintarou, because no one can. If you can only find happiness by draining someone else's, you are a sad soul who will never find what you are looking for, and that's who he seems to be. You make me happy, and proud because you are who you are, and I'm sure you make a lot of other people feel the same way. If he can't see your beauty then he's a blind man, there is nothing you can do to change that.
Don't give up, Kintarou, don't change for someone like that.
...Ya know, you're pretty much the only friend I've had that he's ever ended up growin' to like, but after this, you're prolly gonna end up makin' him hate ya again. ...Otou says he knows what's best for me *'cause* he's my father, though, and keeps tellin' me that even if I don't understand and appreciate it now, I will later when I get older and it becomes important.
Yanno.... Your dad's totally not cool. You are totally awesome as you are, Kin-chan, and it's his loss if he can't see that. Besides. You and I both know that how you dress or how your hair is done doesn't have a damn thing to do with how well you play. Hell, I like looking a little lazy...it makes people underestimate me, so it's even worse for them when I win~
Be yourself, Kintarou. Don't worry about what anybody else says or does or how they treat you. You are you. And doing the things that make you happy is what's important. You're still just a freshman. You've got two more years of school, still. Two more years of friends and tennis, two more years to figure out who you want to be and what you want to do.
I don't think cool is somethin' he's tryin' ta be in the first place, Chitose. He's only interested in makin' sure I live up to my legacy or whatever the hell it is that he says I'm supposed to be, that way he can say that he helped make his son into somethin' great. I know...a lotta it's bullshit that he's spoutin', but...I just want him to look at me for once without that judgin' look in his eyes. I ain't even ever gotten a smile sent my way from him since I was in grade school, and I hate it. I dunno what it is that I did wrong all this time ta make it happen, but I keep hopin' that maybe it'll change if I listen to 'im.
...There ain't nothin' else that I can do 'side from tennis. I ain't good at nothin' else. I ain't smart enough for other things and Otou knows it too. Maybe that's why he pushes so much. He knows I ain't got nothin' ta fall back on if I ain't got tennis. I'll be worthless.
Oh I'm sure he couldn't care less about being cool. But you're right, he is spouting a lotta bull. And whether he realizes it or not, you're already something great, Kin. You are an incredible tennis player, and I think you're smarter than you're giving yourself credit for. But you know...and I hope this isn't the case for you, I really do... Some guys like your dad...are never satisfied. There are people out there who have such high expectations that no matter how hard you work or how good you get, they're still going to tell you it's not enough. Which is why you need to tune out people that don't support you. If you want to get better, get better, but do it for your own sake, not for his, or his approval or satisfaction.
But he's my father, Chitose. I can't just ignore 'im like that. ...It'd just cause more problems and it'd upset Okaa-chan. I don't wanna upset Okaa-chan. She keeps tryin' ta take my side and gets into arguments with Otou enough as it is 'cause of it. I don't wanna make it worse for her.
No ya don't. And those weren't a joke! They were nice clothes! ...Thanks, man.
...I'm not leavin' Riria here by himself. He'll end up punchin' Otou if I'm not with him and then Otou will be an ass and call the embassy ta have him deported back ta Germany or somethin'.
Wasn't it you who told me that legacies are nothing but a fucking joke, and that it's up to us to decide what it is we want and what to do with ourselves? I have to throw that back in your face, now? Works for me.
Seriously. You're not a clone anymore than I am. Don't let some jackass tell you what to play and how you should play it.
They are a joke. ...But sometimes when ya get tired of tryin' ta defend yerself and just wanna make somebody happy for once, ya do what it is they want hopin' it'll work. 'Cause just for once...I wanna hear 'im say I did good and did things the right way.
If he was wantin' a clone, he wouldn't want me changin', he'd wanna enhance what I already got, 'cause I already do act and play like Okaa-chan.
...Already got plans this evenin'. Can tomorrow though.
Not gonna happen. Not any time soon, anyway. Try a tennis ball in the face. Much more effective at getting your point across, and it feels good, too. Just make it an "accident."
I wonder some times if he's got a bad case of hero worship and stopped seeing her flaws. Not fair to you either way.
Heh...I gotta stop bein' the one to ask you to do shit, 'cause you seem to be busy when I do. Can't, heading back to Tokyo tomorrow.
...You forgettin' how hard I hit balls or somethin', Koshimae? I'd break his nose and maybe even crack his skull with onna them.
Maybe. And he 'members the trouble Okaa-chan went through when she first turned pro, so I'm thinkin' that maybe he's tryin' to make sure the same don't happen to me at all.
...More like ya need ta stop retractin' yer offers when ya find out I can't do somethin' at the time ya want. 'Cause, ya know, I can still hang out with you. ...Just not at the time you're goin' for. And why ya goin' back so soon for anyhow? It's a Sunday.
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I'm not sure how much it would help, but would you like me to talk to him, Kintarou? I know most of the damage is done by now, but I could try making him realise that the way you are is what makes you good, if he takes away who you are and your passion, you might win a few games, but soon you'll have no drive to move any further and will definitelly shorten your career.
[ooc: ouch... Kura feels pretty bad for winning now]
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[OOC: He shouldn't be. Kin-chan doesn't feel any regrets over the outcome of the match. He was content with just playing Kura. His father just happens to be a self-important ass and thinks Kin-chan wasn't trying hard enough. >>;]
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Don't give up, Kintarou, don't change for someone like that.
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Be yourself, Kintarou. Don't worry about what anybody else says or does or how they treat you. You are you. And doing the things that make you happy is what's important. You're still just a freshman. You've got two more years of school, still. Two more years of friends and tennis, two more years to figure out who you want to be and what you want to do.
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...There ain't nothin' else that I can do 'side from tennis. I ain't good at nothin' else. I ain't smart enough for other things and Otou knows it too. Maybe that's why he pushes so much. He knows I ain't got nothin' ta fall back on if I ain't got tennis. I'll be worthless.
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... want to stay at mines? Staying with your parents sounds shit.
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...I'm not leavin' Riria here by himself. He'll end up punchin' Otou if I'm not with him and then Otou will be an ass and call the embassy ta have him deported back ta Germany or somethin'.
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Bring him over.
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Seriously. You're not a clone anymore than I am. Don't let some jackass tell you what to play and how you should play it.
You want to so something later on?
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If he was wantin' a clone, he wouldn't want me changin', he'd wanna enhance what I already got, 'cause I already do act and play like Okaa-chan.
...Already got plans this evenin'. Can tomorrow though.
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I wonder some times if he's got a bad case of hero worship and stopped seeing her flaws. Not fair to you either way.
Heh...I gotta stop bein' the one to ask you to do shit, 'cause you seem to be busy when I do. Can't, heading back to Tokyo tomorrow.
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Maybe. And he 'members the trouble Okaa-chan went through when she first turned pro, so I'm thinkin' that maybe he's tryin' to make sure the same don't happen to me at all.
...More like ya need ta stop retractin' yer offers when ya find out I can't do somethin' at the time ya want. 'Cause, ya know, I can still hang out with you. ...Just not at the time you're goin' for. And why ya goin' back so soon for anyhow? It's a Sunday.
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