We are not promised tomorrow. Everything that we have, everyone that we love is so precious in this moment. Every moment. All silently connecting across an intricate web made up of infinite strands of electric light. It knows no bounds or limitations such as time, distance, or space. The energy exists outside of those physical limitations of the ( Read more... )

So very much time has passed since I have even considered writing on this page. So much time in fact, that I have absolutely no idea where to begin. I find myself completely gravitated to it however, the click of the keys, the sight of my own words flowing from one side to the other... it creates this feeling inside me that has been dormant for so ( Read more... )

If I could only see back from ahead. If I could only see over my own head. This is all leading me somewhere, and from the look of it now, it's bound to be painful. Whatever decision I make, it will be so difficult. I am not sure how much more I can handle these continuous difficulties of life. I am so very tired. If I stay there will be trouble, ( Read more... )

Very soon, Autumn and I will be on a plane to Calgary to go visit our beloved family and friends. Too often, I think of living there.. but it seems so impossible, and I know that Harv doesn't think it's a good place to live. It's so hard to always be torn in two between here and there, and us and them. It is so confusing in this life to know what ( Read more... )

It has been a very long time since I have wrote in any kind of journal... I am not even sure what to say yet. This is my starting point.

comfort suit

I’ve been hiding in you again…
Creeping crawling,
In your corners.
So many people’ve told me…
No one can save me,
Nobody but myself…
It’s not that I never knew
The truth of it,
What was spoken to me.
It’s just I don’t always
Notice when
I climb into someone else’s skin.

The raindrops are gently falling on my mother's roof, reminding me of the tears that I have shed. Being home has been quite an emotional experience. Much has been taught to me by the women in my family. About us and about myself. Helping me to understand how I was created and where I fit in. Another piece in the puzzle, another brick removed. I ( Read more... )

I am recovering from everything...my past, relationships, drugs, alcohol, etc. I am struggling, but I am alive and growing everyday. Never changing, always growing. I am me, and I am learning to be comfortable with that. Acceptance, Honesty, Openness, and Willingness. I have been humbled, and I am on the right path. Things seem murky right now, but ( Read more... )

she says:
just how bad can you be?
can we do this again?
lets break some hearts,
lets be bad together.
lets be bad together
so that we can be good together.
cuz we were so good together
when we used to be bad together.

everyone is complaining that i haven't posted in too long, so here i am. things have been so distracting, that i haven't even written in my non-virtual journal since i arrived here in moose jaw. i have been here for two weeks now. actually, i think it might be three... but whatever. i am here and that's what counts. it's hard to say what i am ( Read more... )