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seriously, you ALL have to read this. cause i know i usually skip over the stuff copyed from aim. but this stuff is HILARIOUS. READ IT!!!!! for your own good of course ( Read more... )

okay, ill admit im probably just feeling sorry for myself right now. and thinking about all the things people did wrong to me. and how bad off i have it right now. which looks even more retarded in writing. but doing this whole self pity thing is stupid, and i slowly realized i was doing exactly what i hated in another person. nevertheless, im ( Read more... )

so im trying to become more self sufficent and not so dependant on those around me....cause anyone that knows me really well knows that i am pretty helpless sometimes.. so i have made a list of the lessons i have learned this week. and i think im gonna continue doing this ( Read more... )

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spent a quiet day with zachhery, then went off to jon's to hang with ron and justin. it was fun seeing new people i guess. life is a strange thing. i wonder how much of my perception is a meaningless mood, and how much is reality and a signifigant result or warning of things in this world and in my life. or even real feelings are hard to ( Read more... )

im really sick of this. all of it. im in desprate need of some freedom, and somthing new to attach too. or maybe nothing to attach too, just need to figure out more of myself. but i cant stand this town anymore, its suffocating me, and i think ill runaway for a couple of days. i hate dwelling on things, or specific people. i need soemthing new ( Read more... )

more than anything, i just want you to know that i am sorry. really sorry. sorry about what you have to feel because of me, and sorry that im not even who i thought i am. thats all i want. i know i deserve every bit of this.

i hate lj posts like this, but its the only way i can communicate to you

well i successfully wasted valuable hours of life sitting in front of my television watching reruns of queer as folk episodes ive already seen, and getting involved in silly characters of homosexual hallmark dramas on the IFC channal, y'think im thinking of someone............................wow i feel like such a waste. oh yeah and then i drew a ( Read more... )

james is in jail.