Blissful Weekend Away

[willow_blossom]

First of all I wanted to say thank you for all your friendship and support. Please be assured that I have had down times like last week most of my life, it comes and goes,(I think it's hormonal) but I am well versed in procrastination and know that no matter how terrible I feel in that moment (and I do feel absolutely shattered and distraught) I

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[willow_blossom]

you and the kids should come along sometime!!! we have more than enough tents (4, yes 4, count em!!) to accommodate you all!!!! :)

Yes, sharing does work for me, I'm just not very good at it. I worry about oversharing - I have done some pretty kooky things in my lifetime. But I am working on it :)

[kallie63]

Only been to Walhalla once and it was a beautiful area...

Read your previous post and it's in the gene's or something... Blame our parents anyway, cos I get exactly the same way Sair..

[willow_blossom]

you know Lib, I always had suspicions, but never knew for sure that you get as distraight as I do. I really don't know how you do it with some of the shit you have had to carry through the years... big hugs - I love you sis and if I can every help, please call...

PS - are you looking forward to our camping trip, haven't heard back from Jason's email...

[mcgook]

Sounds fabulous! So glad you had a great time. Nothing like being out in nature with friends to feed the soul.

I'm glad that you are able to step back from that dark abyss so well. We all have periods like that (and I don't mean the hormonal ones) and it's wonderful that you have that innate trust that things will be better. I admire that a lot.

[willow_blossom]

My ability to step back has been a lesson I have had to train myself to do and took a long time to learn. It has been born of 20 years of the same shit over and over again. The events that trigger it are always different, but the feelings the same. The despair I feel is just unbearable and a huge part of me is sure it can never get better again

[mcgook]

Yes, love is a funny thing. And it springs from so many different sources, including being grateful to the people who destroyed us. It took me a while to understand that - but your turn of phrase hit it on the head. in a million alternate realities, I died that night.

The way I look at it, the beaten down person you were died that night - so that you could rise again and make a new life for yourself. It happened for me around 29 - I mean when I finally started rebuilding, though I had been beaten down forever. And part of me is, well, not "grateful," but appreciative of the role those men had, inasmuch as they taught me what I WILL not allow my life to be.

It's SO fabulous that you learned that lesson. So many times, people who have seen that abyss do not see how much they have achieved since then. They only see the continuing darkness. YOU are a true success story.

Despair is a horrible word. But I am inspired by how you do not give it ALL power anymore. I will try to be more like you. :)

[tjoel2]

I had no idea that you had gone through something like that in your past. You are an amazing and strong person to have come back from something like that to be the person that you are today.

[path124]

Sounds like the weekend away was just what you needed. It sounded like a magnificent area to visit too :)

Gotta love GPS's which try to direct you down the wrong street. Surely they could tell when a bridge is broken - LOL! Or maybe it expected more out of your car, for you to just drive right over it!!!

I hope you do get to go back soon *hugs*

[willow_blossom]

GPS only runs on the latest maps that are uploaded to it, so if the bridge hasn't been out long, there is no way it could tell. But it was very funny once we got it figured out and found another way in!

We are going back *soon* (I've decided!!)

[tjoel2]

What a wonderful sounding trip!